well i started to like this girl from the uk. i mean she was beautiful and we had everything in common... same music same love of animals and evvveerryythiiinggg then she tells me we cant talk anymore cause there is "kinda someone else" who live the same distance away if not farther...what the hell??? i mean really if this just wants me to die just say so and i can take care of it dont dilly dally around the subject let me get it over with please!!!!

ok so first off my camera thing sucks so sorry!

ok well I havent been doing to well lately........ i may be moving out of my house soon. :/ i broke my knuckle punching a brick wall. its so hard to be happy anymore. im officially flipping insane! I think i lost my job and now i wont have money to eat so ill have to reserve my protein shake mixes.....my family call me a freak because music is my life........ they dont know its the only thing that makes me happy anymore.       the only positive thing i have right now is that i made a song on guitar and i have lyrics i sing at the same time. to answer a few peoples questions yes i have been cutting and if u dont like it screw off. i deserve it. oh and im haveing to "study" at my "hall" with two different people cause the one guy they stuck me with cant answer the intellectual questions i need anwserd what the hell!!!!!! welll fuck this world goodbye

I hate life

Still beautiful

well updates

     Ok first off id like to say sorry that i havent posted in awhlie because ive been busy and my computer is being stupid :/ . So whats new???? well I got 550 feet of paracord and getting orders already on stuff to make. I need more colors i only have tan :/ ......OHHH MMMYYY GGGOOODDD!!!! TUESDAY!!! WAS!!!! AMMMAAAZZINNG!!!!!! hehehehe god im so fluffy on the inside right now.....so I got some dr.dre beats!!! which RUULLEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And i got a huge survival knife which i will post later cause my combuter IS A BUTT!!!!! so i was at the tuesday cashiers meeting to see frank milanos talk and brother schott was there he started off by trying to stare me down without a smile for like 5 minutes but i won and did it with a smile the whole time MUWAHAHAHAHA he invited me to his talk thursday which i reallly am gonna try to go to so that will make three meetings ive gone to this week. ANd before the meeting started megan eberly and me were talking and i said "i wear this *points to ring* for protection
" she freaked out and was like "OMG TUCKER!!!! does that have any significance?" im like whhaaa???????? she said with a huge smile on her face "yooouuu know...megggaannn? " im like ummm uhhhhh no comment and i said no i wear it to keep the girls away and she was like "suurree" hahaha i love my big sis.  Shes going to hawaii next week and so im going to get me chrius the jones and me and zach and max to go if ya read this come on over and skate with me pllleeeaseee!!! even if u just sit there and be relaxed its all good!!! im sure we may get u to skate eventually hahaha anyway thats it for now buh BYE!!!!!

a night with the shafers

soooo worth reposting

omg sorryyyy but this gets me sooo pumped!!!! the song does but the live version omg!!!!! It takes everything i can to to keep in my chair and not mosh around growling and screaming!!! it makes me so freacking -happy!!!

Wow....its been awhile

Yeah its been awhile since i have last posted something.  If you looked at my schedule everyday there is work written down...no joke!  Even weekends. If im not working from 7-9 or 7-5 im working after the meetings for three hours.  I love my two jobs tho!!! Alot!!! There hasnt been one day were i havent been able to say "im proud of what i did today". Anyway its pretty sweet. Im only one step away from being a publisher again says my elders. And btw i painted my whole room in one day! Walls and all. Yes part of my job is to paint so yes im good at it. And im going to get some crown molding cut it and but it up in my room.  Yes i did all this by my self.  I want my room tl be the best in the house.  So my walls went from tarheel blue to seal grey and my doors are going to be black. Maybe don't know yet plus i got new furniture today.  and i still haven't gotten my money from the ticket i didnt use yet and im really pissed off. You see i got one job then my family (parents )said Tucker you are now going to be paying for EVERYTHING of yours so i had to get a second job. And once i get my status back its going to be hard to sleep at all cause im gping to be getting at least 50 hours a month but i want to shoot for 70. So its going to be veerrryyy hard. And the eberlys want to throw a huge huge huuggeee party once im back. Im planning on like an all day thing ya know? Outside with loudish music and what not ta know? Im makeing a list of who will be invited cause well i hate drama and it pisses me off and since its my party i can kick anyone out and by god i will Hahaha.  Another thing with my new hair cut i look like a marine with my 34" chest and thick shoulders haha i love it tho. Anyway signing off love u all!!!

How to head bang

ok before you read this I would like to say some of this is just bull crap! Like for instance number one....who in the heck streches to head bang? LOOK if your a TRUE rocker you just DO!!!! and DOOOO whats natural you guys! In my opinion fast headbanging should be a rare accurance. My FAV!!!! HEAD BANG!!!! is well hard to explain, you starts standing up head bang down to your waist then you come back up and bounce a little and do it agian I will give you a video and IF you watch it as soon as it starts if you have weak minded ears STOP THE VIDEO IMMEDIATLY...SKIP TO THE 0:31 MARK AND WATCH THE GUITARIST AND BASSIST AND SOMETIMES THE SINGER!!!...
That is my favorite type of head banging!!!

1. 1
   Stretch your neck beforehand and turn your head a bit to lessen the probability of a neck strain. Your head can ache the next morning otherwise.
    
2. 2
   Start with the simple rhythm nod, nodding your head backwards a bit then flicking forward, repeating with the rhythm.
3. 3
   Move on to the head drummer and bend over and continuously headbang to the fast drum beats.
4. 4
   Try the hard slammer: swinging your head from head height to waist height. Do this to the long beat of the song, so if the song has a drum set beat behind it headbang on the bass, because this kind is too long to do real fast.
5. 5
   Then, try the windmill. Spin your head in a circle and let hair fly.Add some of your own style to your headbang so you don't look like a poser.
6. 6
   However, when the song has ended, be sure to remain in a bent down position for some moments, as it may be difficult to walk, after all, your sense of balance may be affected.
7. 7
   Decide how many beats per riff you'll be headbanging to and at what speed
8. 8
   Look up the music video for the song and see how the band that plays it headbangs.
9. 9
   After a few days of practice, not only will you be able to mosh like a god, you will gain the ability to beat people up with your hair.

Welp :(

 well i refuse to spell check for this post.....i got my permit which was GREAT!!!!!! Then I went to ty's baseball game and helped coach the outfield since i played on two championship teams as a center-fielder and catcher and closing pitcher. Then I get a call saying my friend tried to commit suicide.......hes around 4 foot tall and skinny but muscular, he is one fun and funny kid hes older than me by a year. He doesnt do annnyyy drugs, that i know of and he tired to kill himself i mean the ONLY reason I could come up with of why in the hellll!!!!! he would want to die is MAYBE being made fun of his height but NO ONE made fun of his height and if they did his friends like me would set that guy straight and whip his tail!!! Im just so confused right now i mean ive handled with suicidals before and talked people out of it and all but i mean they were really bad off. I just dont know man i really dont ive been staring off into space for hours know just asking the same old question....why? If i could i would be pulling my hair out but i cant.........so after the game we were going out and my mom was at the highscoo and so i started to walk and saw my freind pull up in his old S10 red pick up. its low to the ground but still up to my head so he was my full back in football and my linebacker so i see this he stops and i run and jump on top of thetrucks head and i tell him to bring me to the highschool and he says no so i reach in to the window take a bunch of his quarters and ghe grabs my arm and i slap him really hard, i tell him ill give it back when he takes me up there so he fllyyssss off and swirves every chance he gets and speeds thru every corner he doesnt stop at where i need to go and i throw his change back and he says that i didnt give it all back but i did but he didnt beleive me so i just jumped we were going about 20mph and i almost fall on my face but i dont and he laughs his butt off as he speeds off. man was that fun. now im back to this emotionless asking why pit of mine....

sorry I am writing so many posts but when I post one. people have vewied it so many times I dont want to go back to adding new stuff....So annnyywho!!! I saw a acquintance the other day and she goes to the hub (school of alternatives) where my mom works. Apparently she told my mom that I scare her and that I look very scary........and she said that I never looked like that before and mom asked if he acted out line and the girl said "NO!!! he was actually a genjtlemen and the same old hilarious tucker once you got past the part of how buff he has gotten and how dark and scary he looks" .hehehehe that hyappens sooo much now!!!! cause I havent been to school since last year or
MORE!!!! another cool ditty is when I went to the midnight showing of the hunger games my old lineman saw me and said he saw pics on facebook from me and heard alot about how great I did....WE ARENT EVEN FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK!!!! :O ^_^ idk im just so uber happy right now!!!!!

OHHH MMYYY GODSS!!!! YOU GUYS!!!! I HAS ME PERMITS!!!! :O ^_^ hehehehe so if any of u frankies hear or see a big jeep rowr past your house its me!!!! I am going to spend the night at caseys tomorrow and we are going to haula some butt!!!!@ WHOOOOOOOO HOOO!!!

whats new and apologies!

    Well first off I would like to apologize for my anger in my earlier two or three posts. I have been going thru some rough spots in life and writing on here relieves it ALOT!!!!

     Now on to some music im in love with right now

this is "In Fates Hands" by Red jump suit apparatus they are screamo annnddd soft!!! IF u like the soft parts of this song look up face down both acoustic and non acoustic by them.

this is A Day To Remember their song Your way with words is through silence

     So whats new is me and my bro casey will be going to florida soon for three days to see his family and  deep sea fishing and im really excited!!! my mom hasnt given me a yes yet but hahaha she will ohhhh she will ;PPP and I will be buying a new tactical bookbag! Here is the one i have ->














But sadly its falling apart and i use it for EVERYTHING!!!!! so I'm thinking about getting this HUGE one! ->
















SO what do u guys think? the one i have is a medium and the one I want to ge is a 3 DAY ASSAULT BAG!!! :O its ballistic nylon and around $140 im sooo getting it!!!! It will carry my knives my pistol three days worth of clothes cellular hydration baladder and all my survival needs. fishing line rope (which I'll strap on the outside with buckles) lighters and matches, and toiletries, first aid! flashlights!!!! I love tactical gear!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^ EEEEPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OHHH and a new patch for my bags!!!!

hehehe MONKEY!!!!!

OMG!!!! NEW BAG! FLORIDA!!!! ADTR AND RISE AGAINST CONCERT!!!! AND REALLLYYY CLOSE TO REGAINING MY STATUS BACK!!!!!! I cant WAIT!!!!! I LOVE THIS!!!

Made my goal

WELP!!!!! I hit 1000 veiws. thank u all those who hate me and those who soem what like me! Lets see what I can do this month!!!!

ehhh fuck the world off -kooks

  ya know for a sift british band they got a few good lyrics i really am ready to fuck this world off no friends, and my old ones are a holes and crap too me hahahaha its like my dark levels have gone from dark and depressed (around when I started blogging) then to non (last year) now its soooo dark like i dont care for my life at all. I do the craziest stuff with no fear at all. I find death hilarious. I told somwonw about this and they gave me the lame ass excuse rhat its the music i listen to. Hahaha WRONG!!!! I love my music it makes me happy and calms me. Idk how describe it but its just like everything went to hell and was screwed up around the end of last year but im sure its all my fault no.lie but still its always nice to be able to get out and blow some steam off by chopping down trees and hitting things till i bleed. Another positive note is im going to a huugggeee dance party for witnesses

Whats new and whats to come

     Weeellll I spent the night and day with my two bros casey and chris shafer and my newer friend jay, well we came to find out that we are a bunch of party animals! PLAYERS!!! AND HARDCORE GUYS!!!! hahaha me and chris traded punches all day and in the morning we tore down a chicken coup. IT WAS THE BEST DAY EVER!!!!!!!!!! so out of an impulse we decided to head to tennesse to go to a knife shop! which was also amazing!!!!! We played a classic game to see who could get more numbers and what not. Casey didnt play cause he is with some one They are like the only people that actually talk to me now which I dont mind they can up hold a mature convo, same taste in music mostly. I love spending time with the guys we talk aabout our girl options and what not idk im kinda down alot more but them im happy alot more so idk. I dont get any association in the truth and what I do everyone is ignoring me me and im tired of it even my elders are like that all I got now is the shafers and my boss and bob and joy. but on the flip side I finally can scream pretty dang good! Heres what happened in the car for no reason on the way to TN> *casey slaps me in the face*....*i hit casey in the pec*......
..*silence for a few minutes*....Casey-"sorry for slapping u"
Me-"yeah sorry for hitting too bro" *fist pump an laughter * hahahahahaha I will MOST LIKELY be going to the A day to remember, and rise against concert. Im sorry about my complaining its like all my mind is raceing with ideas. I showed chris a pic of a girl that likes me that is 18 and like three more pics of girls at LEAST!!! 18 nits lke as soon as i turn 16 BAM!!! all these girls come at me im like WTH!!??? But the last one I showed chris was like "Man ur 16 and  getting more tail than IIII get NOW!!!" but I think Im going to take a chance with this girl and see what happens shes cute...very cute and very much so in the truth which i need its her number one priority which is EXCATLY what I am looking for!!!!!! btw these words and feelings ^^^^^^^^^^ were copied and pasted from what I wrote on my phone like a month ago, or some long time. except the day with the shafers bit. idk eh im so hurt right now idk what to do, the shafers say that I just need to forget about my old frinds in franklin and get new ones........ but they are all I know and I love, tho they have been a bit of an ass to me every single time ive talked to them. But oh well what can I do right?  I am habeing a  meeting with some elders to go over some stuff I have been doing to improve myself and ways to get me closer to regaining my status. I saw the hunger games. it was pretty good seneca crane was amazing they really broadened out on his character unlike the books and MAN!!! was his beard sexy as heck!!!!! another fact is im growing my facial hair out! One good thing about being single is no girl can tell me whats hot and what isnt.....wrll they still do because wll they are girls and supposedly know better? hahaha whatever all that matters to me is how I feel and I feel grat and one more thing! IF u are going to be a bitch or an ass or a stuck up prissy person to me dont expect me to show kindness and careing and loving feelings cause that rarely happens with me ingeneral and Im sure as hell not going to do it when ur treating me like that!!!!!

-Proudly brought to you by tuckers anger and rage and hate

Whats up? and Whats new!!!

Ok so If you havent noticed I have been poting like crazy! And I will continue to post crazy like too!!!! Anyway Heres whats new, I can growl!!!!! And no not my natural wolf growl but the screaming growl used in music. Another thing is that I went to a kick BUTT concert last night!!!! (no this is noit the concert in which I WAS going to then was uninvited). Some of my musical theater people called me up and ssaid a biggish local screamo band is playing at the tea house in sylva. So naturally I walked. It isnt to far from my home, by the time I get there my friend had told them that I can scram and sing so naturally they wanted to cover a song. I Told them I can scream carrion by parkway drive, they didnt know how to play it (i was very sad) So I asked if they knew any a day to remember or ...black veil brides they knew like two of my fav songs!!!! ^_^ I was so happy I got to sing "You should have kille dme when you had the chance" By a day to remember and "knives and pens" By Black Veil Brides!. The lead singer kinda helped me with the mid range screams in you should have killed me cause I can only hit real deep like in carrion by parkway drive or ESPECIALLY in "When keeping it real goes wrong" By Emmure. And I can get the high range scream like in knives and pens by Black Veil Brides.

So I got up there and sang black veil brides song and got appluaded then sat back down....ok I DID NOOOOTTTT sit down because I was too busy moshing!!! They had AT LEAST! 40 people moshing, I am sure half didnt even like the music and just wanted to mosh and let out anger. So after awhile all I hear is "oOk for our last song we want tucker to come back up and sing and scream til you M!$^@$# FU$%#@^rs CRY!!!!" hahaha I was stunned, I get up and just go right into singing the BVB song (blck veil brides) after that they wanted more so me and the lead singer wanted to do when keeping it real goes wrong (which they performed without me) but together and like a duet screamo! and well I got crazy And mid way thru the song I jumped on the mosh pit...I wa sheld up for like a few seconds and moved back a couple feet then they brought me back to the stage, and I was all like " WONT!!!!! YOU BE MY BRIDEEE!!!!!" <-song lyrics! twas amazing tho i still have some blood on my face hahahaha

People who I have been told I look like. The first is samual witwir who plays Starkiller in the "Starwars the force unleashed series video games. The other..weelllllll He is Stev-o from Jacka$$. I dont have anything new to talk about so until next time GOODBYE!!!!!

Ok so as you can see that the post previous of this one is a "How-To" video on how to mosh....Well soon I am going to try and either make how to video or just a post on how to head bang, but first off I have a parody or just a remix to "SING" by: My Chemical Romance...I am going to try it in a scream tonight and maayyybbbeeee post a video of me screaming and singing it....here ya go hope you enjoy!!! (im more than sure you wont) hehe

"Scream"

Scream it out
Boy, you've got to see what tomorrow brings
Scream it out
Girl, you've got to be what tomorrow needs
For every time that they want to count you out
Use your voice every single time you open up your mouth

Scream it for the boys
Scream it for the girls
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Scream it from the heart
Scream it till you're nuts
Scream it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Scream it for the deaf
Scream it for the blind
Scream about everyone that you left behind
Scream it for the world
Scream it for the world

Scream it out, boy they're gonna sell what tomorrow means
Scream it out, girl before they kill what tomorrow brings
You've got to make a choice
If the music drowns you out
And raise your voice
Every single time they try and shut your mouth

Scream it for the boys
Scream it for the girls
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Scream it from the heart
Scream it till you're nuts
Scream it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Scream it for the deaf
Scream it for the blind
Scream about everyone that you left behind
Scream it for the world
Scream it for the world

Cleaned-up corporation progress
Dying in the process
Children that can talk about it,
Living on the web ways
People moving sideways
Sell it till your last days
Buy yourself the motivation
Generation Nothing,
Nothing but a dead scene
Product of a white dream
I am not the singer that you wanted
But a dancer
I refuse to answer
Talk about the past, sir
Wrote it for the ones that want to get away

Keep running!

Scream it for the boys
Scream it for the girls
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Scream it from the heart
Scream it till you're nuts
Scream it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Scream it for the deaf
Scream it for the blind
Scream about everyone that you left behind
Scream it for the world
Scream it for the world

You've got to see what tomorrow brings
Scream it for the world
Scream it for the world
Yeah, you've got to be what tomorrow needs
Scream it for the world
Scream it for the world

How to Mosh!!!!

2. Know protocol and unwritten rules. While it may seem otherwise, moshing is by no means a way to hurt someone. Moshing is about releasing aggression, and having fun while enjoying some awesome music. The 'rules' are mainly common sense.
   
   
   • Falling - Lift that person and make sure they are not hurt. They will probably just laugh and thank you before joining back in or stepping out if they are hurt. This could possibly be the most important rule of all, you must pick up a falling mosher at all times.
   • Copping a feel - It's wrong. Don't do it. Every female mosher isn't a groupie and if she doesn't get revenge on you, the guy beside you will get it. Not only is it wrong, it's very disturbing to a girl. But, it does happen, and if it does, call out whoever did it. More respectful moshers will usually push him away, or get between you and him.
   • Hitting - It's not a fight! If you hurt someone it is etiquette to maybe shake their hand or clap their shoulder. Do a friendly gesture and apologize (flashing the 'horns' and mouthing an apology over the music works). Also bear in mind that if you start a fight, you will be surrounded and greatly outnumbered.
   • The Pull out - When you're standing around an extremely violent/large pit watching the action and you see someone trying unsuccessfully to get out of the pit, if you think you can handle the pit, go and get them. It's always appreciated.
   • The Lift Up - If someone is hurt but no one will move to let them out of the crowd (which is common at larger festival pit and crowds), ask the people around you to lift the person up and body surf them to the front so security can help them out. Make sure to ask if it's okay first though as getting lifted freaks some people out at first.
   • Don't Be The Jerk. People on the sidelines are on the sidelines for a reason...They Don't want to mosh right now. Of course some will very soon others don't. Don't force anyone to mosh by grabbing them and throwing them in to the pit if they really don't want to. Sometimes this is a great way to start a pit but if a pit is already going and someones on the sideline don't force it. Also if they are holding a fist out in front of them they don't even want to be touched.
3. 2
   Know what you're getting into. Be objective and recognize that you may get hurt, and you're definitely going to get covered in sweat (and maybe even saliva or blood) of complete strangers. While the objective of a mosh pit is to make physical contact withoutgetting hurt, there is a good degree of unpredictability and risk. Much of the risk comes from the type of music playing. Ska will be more relaxed, while metal and some punk will be rougher. If you're considering making your debut in a mosh pit, be aware of the potential consequences and make sure that they're worth the thrill.
4. 3
   Wear the right gear. Wear clothes that you don't mind getting stained or even ruined. Your outfit should also be comfortable and light, since it will get hot in the pit.
   • Make sure your shoes fit tightly and lace them well, because if a shoe falls off, you'll have a hard time getting it back and your unprotected foot will suffer in the meantime. Boots or chucks are recommended.
   • Remove any spiked wristbands or other dangerous accessories, as they could injure a fellow mosher (or even yourself). Avoid anything that can be grabbed (i.e. chains, chained wallets, long necklaces and dangling earrings). Unusual and easily injured piercings may look cool, but will be a liability in the pit.
   • Never take bags or backpacks into the pit as they are a liability to you and the people around you. Give any loose articles to a trustworthy friend. Do not keep anything in your pockets in a pit! They will most likely fall out.
   • If you can see reasonably well without your glasses, take them off and leave them with a friend who is not moshing. Better yet, wear contacts to the show.
   • Your shirt will most likely be grabbed and pulled, so it is best to get a shirt with good coverage. If you are female, it is best to wear a sleeved shirt, not a tank top.
5. 4
   Brace yourself. Whether in the mosh pit or out, you need to keep your hands and more specifically, your arms prepared. Don't look like you're ready to strike someone, but certainly don't put yourself in a position where your hands are going to be stuck to your sides, you may accidentally get your face knocked by someone's skull flying at you and you weren't ready for it.
6. 5
   Watch and observe from the side. How brutal are the individuals bouncing around this particular pit? Are people just having fun, or are they going for blood? Know the difference between those who are "slam dancing" and the idiot high school jock who's running around smashing people in the face with his knuckles. There are many different types of moshing, and adapting to these is an important step if you want to enjoy it.
7. 6
   Participate on the side line by pushing people back in the pit and embracing mosh pit kids from falling as they circulate the rim. There are going to be people flying back and forth, side to side, up and down and all over the place.
8. 7
   

    Circle the circle pit.
   Circle the circle pit. You're going to continue pushing, bouncing, and slamming off of other people in the pit. Eventually you're going to be able to control your direction and choose your hits, maybe even on your first night. Go at the speed of the crowd. Watch out for pauses, though. Typically, all moshers who know when a pause in the song is coming will clear the pit and start after the pause. Be sure to either know the music or be ready for pauses to occur if you don't know how to mosh yet.
   • The dropper (or breakdown) is the violent outburst that many metal, hardcore, alternative bands, punk rock, and similar types of music have that goes from normal lyrical music to a crashing point which will set off the adrenaline of every kid around you and is virtually the "go" sound or green light that it is time to smash and slam again. If you're unfamiliar with the music, this is going to be hard to spot, but if you see it coming, you won't be caught off guard by the sudden outburst.
9. 8
   Open up the pit. Sometimes mosh pits occur in very crowded places. When this happens, there will be a natural tendency of the crowd to push the outer rim of the pit towards the center. Eventually this will close the pit unless the crowd is continually pushed back. Seasoned moshers will typically counteract this by launching themselves into the sides of the pit in various ways. Basically, if the people on the cusp of the pit have more incentive to stay out of your way than to let the crowd push them into the pit, the pit will stay open. Some strategies for doing this include...
   • "Crack back" by having several people lean back onto the walls of the pit with their arms outstretched
   • "Cluster" a bunch of people with their arms over each others' shoulders and have them bounce around the walls of the pit
   • "Slingshot" into the sides by using another person's momentum to launch you.
   • "Circle pit" by creating a whirlpool of people running around the outside of the pit.
   • Anything that involves flailing limbs that looks like it will hurt if someone gets too close. There are numerous hardcore dances that can facilitate this. Look to the crowd for inspiration.
10. 9
    Switch things up.
    
    
    
    
    • Pogoing. Basically just jumping up and down, usually at punk shows.
    • The Cyclone. Cross your arms over your chest to form an "x" and clasp hands with a fellow mosher in the same position, facing you. Then spin around each other, using your weight to gain momentum. This is a good way of widening a small pit or making space to perform further moves in a crowded pit. You can let go when you are spinning fast, but this will likely result in a hard landing and possible injury, or slamming into and thus annoying another mosher.
    • Stage dive. Push your way past the crowd and the bouncers if you can so that you can get on stage. Without disrupting the band or any of their equipment, dive into the crowd (make sure they see you coming) and tense up when you land so that you're easier to catch. Be warned: Many venues will eject you from the concert for stage diving. Make sure you know the rules of the club.
    • Crowd surf. You can start off either by stage diving or by hoisting yourself up on two (taller) people's shoulders. Having somebody lift you up by the foot with their hands is risky because odds are, the people around you won't have enough time to see you coming and somebody (including but not limited to you) will get hurt, extremely hurt! If you do get boosted make sure the people around you see you coming before you actually land on them.
    • The anaconda- a two person move that is best done with lots of space. Put one persons legs around the other persons waist so that their hands are on the ground and legs elevated. The standing person holds on to their quads and lifts bringing their entire torso up. The person with their hands on the ground should push up to help the lifting person. Doing this repeatedly is a lot of fun and will get a lot of laughs.
    • One thing I forgot to mention is that some bands will set up a wall of DEATH!!!!! what is a wall of death  you ask? a wall of death is where the crowd will split down the middle and at the "go" point in a song everyone runs as hard as they can to hit and slam into each other, Its kinda like red rover red rover but for adults. Haha yes. heres a video link
    • http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JajBn5NO5aU 
    • MUCH THANKS TO wikihow!

Well the hunger games is ok. I wish it would go straight to the fighting and less drama I mean good god what is this a YOUNG ADULT BOOK??………………………Oh wait....yes yes it is hahahahaha. Well besides that I am most positive that at least four girls like me! I like one. And the one i like I can't have.  It pisses me off man! Well I can't have her its more of a mutual agreement cause we want to wait till we can do it right ya know? Haha im sure I will edit all this out once I regain conscienceness..*le passes out ....again*

Welp....I beleive I will be reading these damned hunger games books!!! ARRGH!!!! And I am doing it cause I have to write on the movie so I would like to read AT LEAST the first one first. I swear to god if anyone says anything to me about I will go off. No I didn't give in.I don't want to break a habit of mine. I ALWAYS read the book before the movie and I am NOT gonna break that now.

All new stuff

     Well I just thought I would post a few videos along with this latest updates on how things are doing. So heres the low down:  I made one kinda enemy but she is stuck up to begin with so who cares. I was uninvited to the mutemath concert which I don't mind but me loseing $45 now that REALLY pisses me off and I will be holding some people responsible for paying me back, I got to play guitar at the pool at the hotel and made a new witness friend and he plays amazingly! And I let him play my guitar cause well there was like 25 girls and 10 guys and 2 of my older friends had shirts on cause they are chubby so like the show off I am I fling my shirt off revealing my newly made six pack (Ive been working out alot) and dove over three people in to the 5 foot deep side and swam under water to the far end side. I twas truly spectacular. It was made out to me by the looks and my friend Raina telling me I was clearly the most fit and toned and muscluar guy there. Then one of my friends who was trained like a marine by his dad who was a marine started to grappel and fight with me (all play ) he tried to pull me under the first time with his leg lock on my foot but I conteracted it with a thai leg press on his shin and he started to scream and I pulled him under and he tapped out. The next time he tried to grab me but I back off and got to where half my body was out of the water and I started to get in position to kick box him out and I went at his face really fast with open palms (slaps) and he backed away cause he knew I had him there. Then we started grappeling again and I threw a left side kick and he caught my foot as I was retracting it and as he held I came up to put him in a forward choke hold and my calf in my left leg got a charley horse and he Pulled me under and I was forced to tap out. Then I ran for 20 minutes straight and I mean RUN!!! if you have a tread mill put it on 8mph and an incline of 35% and do it for 20 minutes. My calfs still hurt on this monday ugh. And then I truly had one of the best times on the way back home with my best friend casey.

     As you should know he is my screamo teacher, and at first he toild me I suck and yesterday he told me im ok now and getting better! I didnt get a chance to show him my best screaming which is like the screaming done in some of the song when keeping it real goes wrong by emmure and all the screamo done in knives and pens by black veil brides. Its a loud a higher pitch and casey cant do that kinda scream. He growls amazingly.

         

     And we went to asiana in asheville and,...ok first off every time me and case have eaten together we have stuffed our faces full till we have wanted to throw up and get bad stomach problems for a few days. And we had four big plates of sushi and other foods and we werent anywhere near full! WE WERE LIKE WHAT THE HECK???? OH!!!!! the reason I posted all signs point to lauderdale is because i wanted to say that I still dont fit in with people I love. I have always been a little to hard or too punk or to something. With the music I listen to and that I work out liek crazy and I am actually in shape and I dont mind fighting when its needed. (and yes someone told me I wasnt a punk this weekend and it pissed me off, it seems like that person is just always dissing me, but i love her so much and she is an amazing person!) So iI have just come to terms that I wont fit in FULLY most likely ever, but I always have me myself and jah, what else do I need? 

     So some newer stuff Is that I am sponsered as a blogger and as a boulder'er by a local clothing company and they want me to model for them in april. Another thing in april is I will be going to a dance party for modern dance and latin dance!!!! I cant wait!!!!! I am so gonna tear it up with my mom (we can dance!) I will also be getting my permit here in about two weeks which will be awesome!

     OMG!!!! Have you seen the latest once upon a time episode? I DID!!!! Red riding hood who is the most flipping hotest girl is the whole show!!!!! I mean she is a punk has a muscle car! HAs abunch of wolf stuff!!! (BTW im a wolf..a punk wolf!!!!) and so anyway *SPOILER* the episode is about the big bad wolf and red, so the wolf is ACTUALLY RED!!! :OOOO  heres how the convo went in my living room as me and my brother and mom were watching! "*as we figure out red is the wolf and she turns* Mom: oh my!!!! ty:holy crap didnt see that coming!!!!!! ME: thats soooo hot *drools*"

    I love my life right now! Im doing everything for one reason, jah! I do hope i make a bunch of people happy like my dearest friends and the person i love, but if i dont and im makeing god happy then who cares?

     I don't know why but life just sucks!!!! who you think is your friends lie to you and leave you as soon you have nothing to offer or ask for help! Everyone will lie to you, and screw you over when they get the chance!!!!! Nothing is ever good enough for anyone!!!! As soon as you start crying they see that as a weakness and make fun of you whether it be in front of you or behind your back! They give you dirty looks, Whisper when you walk by and kick you when your down! I am TIRED and DONE with trusting people anymore this system of things is screwed all to crap and there is no use in trusting, loving, careing about anyone or anything in this world. Jehovah is not apart of this system...I wonnderrrrr why?

     Idk I mean to be honest, I am the farthest away from being even somewhat of a good friend. I guess I just get what I deserve and I dont deserve much.

Karla

Every time I think of her

I try not to cry

no matter what it is

I only have one wish

an that is to say

goodbye

no matter what I always cry 

yeah it hurts

on the inside

I don't know how it works

just hope it doesn't pass me bye

or please

 let me die

oh god help me from these words

their like a noose of cords

I don't know what to say

except to start a brand new day 

not a day passes bye

that I don't cry

thinking of her 

pretty smile

and the way she drove me wild

PURSUIT, ANSWERS, AND QUESTIONS

     Knock knock who's there. these are the beginning words of one of the worlds most known jokes. and this joke is the beginning of a very minor part of happiness.Well what is happiness? Thomas Jefferson put in the Declaration of Independence that man be allowed to pursue HAPPINESS.But why did he put pursue? Can man only pursue happiness? And never capture it, hold it, love it? This is very good questions i am asking but is there an answer......

     Here is a good one "What is the ultimate question of the universe?".This a very good question but where was this originated, when and who pursued this. It would take a life time to answer this question and after that you would need another lifetime to pursue the ultimate answer to the ultimate question. And wouldn't "What is the ultimate question" be the ultimate question? Why i think the reason this is for who ever originated this question was trying to tell those who think they are smart are stupid, cause the ultimate question is simple but hard but right in front of your eyes, for the ultimate question is "WHY" and the answer is everything. well not everything exactly; you see for the ultimate question has no ULTIMATE ANSWER but MANY,MILLIONS. 

Updates and to does

     Ok so here goes nothing *cracks knuckles*. So I would just like to go over somethings I want to do this year. And looking forward to doing. Before I start I must say i have learned the beginning to mariana's trench by august burns red! And it is played in a drop C. And while I had it in the tuning I  decided to play agatha's fine goodbye and decided to change the tuning that the song was originally in which was standard to have the first two strings in drop c.

1. I am determined to get together with someone (I prefer a female musician or writer) to collaborate with at least one song that I have created on guitar. The must have song is Agatha's fine goodbye  . It has to be about a girl (agatha) saying a fine goodbye in some sort of smooth and lovely way. Thats why I would kinda like to have a female vocalist so I can make it more of a conversational piece but I could always do the same by just doing a pitch differential. But where is the fun in that? 

2.The second is to go to the beach for the first time, and go with friends. I mean I wouldn't know what to do. Would I sit and read? snorkel? Just swim? Beach volleyball? Now that would be lovely, I love volleyball! Football? AWWEEEE YEAH!!!! 

3. Hmmmmm I guess just go to and perform a few open mics. And maybe get in a band with a few witnesses. 

Video Breakdown of the week

     So I just want to say I think I am going to be breaking down music videos at LEAST once a week.

WARNING!!!!!! MATERIAL MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL AUDIENCES AND MAY BE TAAKEN OFFENSE BY WATCHING THIS VIDEO, I AGREE THEY ARE A BIT DEMONIC>>>READ THE BLOG YOU TWITS!!!!

     Ok so this is a video by Black veil Brides, yes I do like the band, yes I do see that they are demonic. Now shut up and just read this stuff k?

     So this is a breakdown so I will be taking in and shareing a few things I got from the video.

     So If you notice in the video they are in two completely different scenes. One they are in all black and the other in all white (the only similarities in these two scenes is the marshall amplifiers are the same). I would like to think they did this because of the two opposities, good and evil. But who knows. Then they skip to a stage view with them in black and red, which I did not really like. Another thing I seemed to notice was that the house the kid lived in looked very similar to the house in dazed and confused, you know the kid with the long hair and his older brother who is a senior? 

     I love that when the kid is stereotyped and the bully takes away his book what the boy does is goes and writes. He writes to relieve his pain, to keep himself from hurting something or hurting himself he writes. I love that, cause I do that, tho I do not get to alot but I still like doing it. 

     OHHHHH!!!! I got a big one for ya. How in the crap did the "bully" get in to that boys house? Just leave a spare key to all the big bad seniors? HAHAHA I mean COME ON!!!!! I thought "is it his brother?" nahhhhhh cant be. BUT AGAIN WHOOO  KNOWS????

     I noticed that the boy had posters on his wall one was of judas priest which is one of the god fathers of heavy metal but the lead singer is gay...(literally) and another poster was of Rob Zombie, which to be honest I don't like his stuff. And the other was a poster of either system of a down or disturbed, I don't know. 

     SO the things I dislike about this video is at the end the band pores "blood" all over themselves, thats soooo stupid...I like how andy the singer screams and sings cause I can hit those notes....mostly. 

well thats it for now. please give me suggestions for my next video breakdown