Evil Echo

I scream for you
And all I hear is an echo
An echo with in my mind and heart

I was fed these emotions
Ones that I feel haven't been true
You say they are but they always say actions speak louder than words

I live today but barely holding on
I do stupid things with no fear
I think of the simplest thing and I think of you and then there is a tear

Seeing today and fearing tomorrow
Living yesterday and dieing today

Fear life
Embrace death

Shun the light
Take hold of the darkness

HEAR THAT ECHO OF THE HEART
FEAR THE LIGHT OF YOU
BREAK THE BONDS

Knock down the walls of intimidation
Scream to the moon

I gave my eyes to the sun
I never said goodbye to anyone

Leaving you in that bed
How that bed was so stained
Stained with scarlet red

You left me for dead
With the worms and maggots
We will see whose eyes rot first

Buried ten feet in
Waiting to see the first to fall
When we fell at the same time

MUST READ!!! Video break down

.........CCAARRRIIIIOONNN!!!!!!.....................
-straightens tie- HMM hmmm
 
     Ok. Now thats done I would like to say a few things before I get into some deep stuff here kiddo's. First WHHYYY??? will blogger not let me tab? It makes it really hard on me to count out five spaces haha. Second the carrion I just screamed was from one of my favorite songs ever that almost make sme cry every time. The name of the song is carrion by Parkway Drive. The begining is HUGE!!! I love hitting those notes! You use your diaphram alot to scream. But I like it. Cause every time I scream carrion I use as much energy as I can and I kinda shake and tense my whole body. I feel so..... at peace when I scream that.

     So. I think im going to put a link to the new Star Wars Old Republic Game. (<- click to watch youtube video) This video made me cry. YES I SAID CRY!!!!!! I am a huge dork and huge geek and I love music. So when you put one of my favorite movies (star wars) and make it into a game and then post the EPIC! gameplay on youtube with one of my favorite songs ( Carrion by Parkway Drive ) well you get me crying in front of a computer screen watching the same video 10 times. (side note: February 10th this year star wars is coming out in 3D :') you can bet big money I'm going to see every one!!!)

     Have you watched it yet? The star wars old republic gameplay? Well if you havent you might as well stop watching cause im about to go deep here haha.....

     Ok. So the gameplay is from what I have seen is amazing. But I'm here to talk about this video and what you see. Ok you from the begining there is some pretty cool battleing between jedi and siths. The first fight scene with the green saber jedi and the main sith is m y second favorite out of them all in the video, there is little things that I didn't catch till I watched it again and again. Like for instance besides the part where the jedi totally jumps over the saber throw at 0:36, but at 0:50 to 0:54 there is a part where the jedi and sith lock sabers and then the jedi just hits him with the staff end of his lightsaber, I LOVED thatt!!! I really like that this game has more..how you say fighting with hand to hand combat like in the first episode star wars with obi-won and darth maul (in my opinion best fight scene out of the movies).

     But, now for my favorite character out of this video and fight scene. Right at 1:10 you see the i suppose commander of the republic commando marine clone troopers? The one without his helmet. And he sees the sith, sees the bullets and what not arent doing anything. SO like the bad ass he really is he just charges him!!!!! I MEAN GOOD LORD!!!!! How awesome is that? Here is a clone! They don't get alot of respect but they give it EVERYTHING!!! RISKS IT ALL!!! Knowing they can be replaced as easy as pie! And that made me ball my eyes out. So he takes the sith head on and about five feet from the sith the sith uses his eletricity to electricute the marine. What does the marine do? Wellllll lets see he FEAKING SCREAMS! AT THE SITH!!!! AND KEEPS...ON...MOVING! Did I mention that on the marines way to the main sith he takes down two siths? YEah he does!!!Then thats when the jedi uses her force blast to blast them all away. You can see the marine in the back dazed by all this then someone gives him a gun and he is right back at it! So then this awesome girl jedi with a double saber staff jumps in and takes out four or five siths in a flash and heads to the main sith. They battle it out and then the sith gains the upper hand by cutting her staff in half and sending both peices flying and he goes to stab her in the heart. And she uses the force with her hands to stop his saber. Then thats when my man comes in. The marine to tackle the sith and they lock up and the sith (much stronger) easily gains the upper hand. **Sith throws a punch marine catches it. Marine throws a punch and sith catches his wrist**but you see they are locked in hand to hands and the marine throws a punch that the sith easily catches...The marines eyes closed you see the hand that the sith is holding open! And the marine is holding a thermal detonator! He presses the button BOOM!!!! marine is dead the sith scarred but not dead. The jedi comes and uses force push to force the sith up against a big rock face about a 100 yards away or so. The sith struggles to get out and he slowly screams moving forward then the jedi uses a HUGE force blast to destroy not only th sith but art least half the rock face...The end...I love the marine he gave it all for nothing. And that makes me cry everytime...

Updates and new stuff...isn't that the same thing?

     Ok, so I made a new friend. First off we have been friends for.....Three days? and we already have at least 1700 messages. Well this is some of the poetry I made her show me that she wrote. She doesnt really like her own stuff and says I'm way better but I say the same thing. She seemd pretty dark...I LIKE IT!!!! hahaha I'm just tired of being the only one that is dark. She also has health problems like with her knees sound familiar? hahaha And she loves adrenaline rushes and pushing her limits. Anyway her is some of her poetry but first time for updates.
     
     First off I kinda just lost someone I love. They didn't die. It's just complicated. And besides being down all the time because of that I've been practicing screamo singing. And I have gotten to use it twice in public. And both times people liked it the second time tho was better. I actually had people clap for me haha.

     I finished a new song on guitar that I named Agatha's Fine Goodbye. I play it everyday and can't get enough of it. I also learned to play "You had me at hello" by a day to remember which I love....Has anyone else besides me noticed that alot of screamo bands have some AWESOME!!!!! acoustic songs?

     Speaking of A Day To Remember...I GET TO GO SEE THEM ANNNNDDD RISE AGAINST!!!!! EEEEPPPPPPPP!!!!!! hahaha I love these bands!!!! Before I forget my friend ashton says "eep" in high pitched voice when you squeeze right above her knee. Ok well I LOOVEEE these bands and all of my friends are jealous well some are some could really care less. But HAY!!! I will get to go with my bro casey! Love that guy. And I will get to do something that I haven't done in awhile..*deep screamo voice* MOSH PITTT!!!!! After what I've went thru this past two months and someone always saying "rest!, DONT DO THAT! you'll get hurt!!" I'm going to go all out on everything....(I miss hearing those words tho : (  ) ANY WHO here is the two poems "It" and "Teen'' By: Raina Woy

It
Ever see something out of the corner or your eye

When you look it is gone

Ever feel like someone is watching but no one was ever there

Do you start hearing things

Guess what, you are stuck in fear

You can't get out IT simply won't let you

You are alone

Mania starts seeping in

You try to block it out

It won't let you

Your walls are weak an brittle

You start to stiffen

Can't breathe?

Here IT comes..

It can smell your fear

Fear calls to it

Now it has you in its grasp

Your poor attempts to gasp for air will do you no good

You give your life's last breath

IT drains you to your death

Trapped in fear..........

Teen
Are you aware

Cab you stand a stubborn teen

Who writes poems as if death is lurking your way

She doesn't like you

Are you alert

A stubborn teen may get you hurt

Many things have happened.. Have you heard

Steer clear, leave her be, she always gets away

Scary things may happen to you today

You can't escape now. You can't hide from me

Your image burns inside my memory

To relieve this agony... She manipulates you mind.

She gives you her pain and strife

Are you aware
Are you alert

This stubborn teen may get you hurt.

I need a name for this song!!!!

I've been listening to the same song for the past hour 
and it just keeps getting sweeter
every.single.time

oh

I light the candles in the wind

Writing songs in your name

I felt the silence sit, sit in my brain

You never show'd up

And thats when I Scram your name

Nothing but the wind to hear my crys

Thats when I sang

ohhh IIIII

Cant forget your name

And even tho you reject me

I step back in again

I need you now more than ever

All I hear is your voice calling my name

Its been two weeks now

I haven't talked to you once

Cause i honor your wishes

I'm over you in my dreams

I've forgotten the smiles, the laughs, and the kisses

And then i sang

ohhh IIIII
Cant forget your name
And even tho you reject me
I step back in again
I need you now more than ever
All I hear is your voice calling my name


And thats when I got your call.......................




still a work in progress

happy at last

Looking for a bloody sky
In the plains of hell

Can anyone feel the pain I feel?

And no please don't Tell!

All these scars just cut deeper

From all the evil I see in my own eyes

But when I am happy I am noy monsterous machine

I don't hear all the childrens cries

I actually see a way out

Im tired of being nothing to myself

This darkness I have come to know so well

How can I let something go when its all I know?

My saviour has gone and left me

Left me for death Sweet death

To take me in my sleep tho I hope i met it head on

like a rushing bull to the matador only to die a slow and painful death

But for now I am happy with this

Happy with my pain

seeing clearly for the first time

I realize that living

is......................

100!!!

                     So first of I would like to point and laugh at my dearfoxy friend devin....-points and laughs-....ok so now that that is over with, I would like to announce that I got a 100 on my literature exam for school. The topic was "How to write a paragraph with correct puncuation and format" SO HA!!! Take that all you who say my blogs are just one big mess! Tho I did misspell meets with mets..I blame that I was doing it aat 7 in the morning!
       
                    Ok well besides that I don't really have any new news except that maybe. I may be going to go see one of my favorite bands Rise Against. And I really want to go beacause it's on my bucket list.

                  

new song lyrics

     Ok so I was inspired this morning..welll not inspired but more of I heard guitar chords in my head and then i had lyrics that I was screaming...Yes these lyrics is screamyish but more of like soft bullet for my valentine or hard three days grace. And before people go on and say I wrote this for someone..I DIDNT! I never write anything for anyone.

And ALL I did

Was want to fall asleep with you

And as we lay here in bed

I can't forget All The THINGS I said

To you

Just wanna hold you in my arms

And thats when I HEARD you say

IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER ANYWAY

Today

As I held you in my arms

You pulled that trigger and blew me away

But IIII still

Love you ALL the same

Evn tho

Im TEN feet in the ground

The love my heart still pounds

And thats all I have to say

For you today

Nothing new but argueing! :D

OK first off I've been real happy the last couple of days and today.....I still am and to start today I would like to argue : ) ....Ok so one of my sisters (not by blood) (or marriage) wrote a blog (click link) about music today not haveing any meaning and it isnt what it used to be. And the music industry. Ok so first off Lauren your too dang picky, I know you already know that but I'm just sayin. And the music industry right now is THRIVING! to be honest most of the bands you like were from an era where the music industry wasnt good 1990's - early 2000's. It hasnt been this good since the 80's. And too be honest I HATE the stupid music today  but its what the people demand apparently so thats what they give them. Plus there is bands today that make music worth listening too. NOW you may not like it cause your not openb too all music but alot of todays music has meaning for instance RISE AGAINST is an amazing screamo/heavymetal/rock band but when most people hear the first few chords they are going make one of two desicions, not listen or listen. Now this band has heavy riffs and big drumming (like most heavy metal) BUT!!! the lyrics to almost EVERY SINGLE SONG!!!! has meaning and once you actually listen to that then you'd understand. Plus music will never be exactly like it use to be cause as long as people change (which they always do, history repeates itself) then so will thge music. And besides your a musician!!! How awesome is that? VERY!!! go make your own stuff, and dont say you suck cause you dont and if you did LEARN to love your own stuff!!! No matter what II or others say screw 'em and keep on playin!

Peace, Love, Keep on Keepin on!
Tucker Wolf Moore

Thank you

I dont have alot to say but i just want to say thank you to tghose who read my posts. I have like 3 followers but I get people from asia and europe and alaska reading it, so I thank you. Ok so, I have one update after all, and yes its disappionting. Well my pay check got cut by 50%..yeah major..So now i have to get another job and I am going to wait till the 17th of this month cauyse it makes it alot easier cause I'll be 16. And I know some may think this isnt bad at all....Weeelllll my second job will cause me to miss some meetings, and the rare times that I have gotten to spend time with my friends in frannklin will be cut down to none, I may get to like once every three months if im lucky. But im working for my grandparents this week and because im haveing to move big moldy stuff everywhere im getting paid some big bucks. so ill be able to spend alot of money in asheville with what seems like the last time with my friends next wednesday at the waltz night at the orange peel. NOW!!! I didnt want to tell anyone this because one people i usually pay for there stuff when im with them will not allow me to do that. and two will look at me different IM STTIIILLLL the same person!!!! LET ME pay for your crap or your trip!!! I save up to do this! I PLAN on buying you satuff WHY???? Cause I like to!!! Why I have to get an extra job is so I can have some food when my parents arent with me which is ALOT. and so i can pay my bills...Anywho besides that im haveing an amazing time! I want everything to go perfect on the 11th when we get to waltz night!!! I got myself a tailcoat. And i want it to be awesome cause it may be the last time for a VERY LONG time that ill get to see my friends. PEACE! LOVE! and i miss you all!!!!

Hero of war

Ok so one of my favorite bands (rise against) who sing an acoustic song named hero of war and I love it and it tells a story. He said "Son, have you seen the world?
Well, what would you say if I said that you could?
Just carry this gun and you'll even get paid."
I said "That sounds pretty good."

Black leather boots
Spit-shined so bright
They cut off my hair but it looked alright
We marched and we sang
We all became friends
As we learned how to fight

A hero of war
Yeah that's what I'll be
And when I come home
They'll be damn proud of me
I'll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it's a flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

I kicked in the door
I yelled my commands
The children, they cried
But I got my man
We took him away
A bag over his face
From his family and his friends

They took off his clothes
They pissed in his hands
I told them to stop
But then I joined in
We beat him with guns
And batons not just once
But again and again

A hero of war
Yeah that's what I'll be
And when I come home
They'll be damn proud of me
I'll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it's a flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

She walked through bullets and haze
I asked her to stop
I begged her to stay
But she pressed on
So I lifted my gun
And I fired away

The shells jumped through the smoke
And into the sand
That the blood now had soaked
She collapsed with a flag in her hand
A flag white as snow

A hero of war
Is that what they see
Just medals and scars
So damn proud of me
And I brought home that flag
Now it gathers dust
But it's a flag that I love
It's the only flag I trust

He said, "Son, have you seen the world?
Well what would you say, if I said that you could?"

Ok so the title of this song you may think its pro-war bit thats the great thing. Its neither pro nor con. Do at the beginning a boy it young man os talking to his dad and his dad asks him if he wants to join to the army. Saying he will get to see the world and he will get to carry a gun AND get paid for it. Son of course says yes. And near the middle of the song he talks about how they were taught to fight and how he made a bunch of freinds. Then in the middle he says that he took a man from his own house while his children we're still there. Then they peed in his hands and took all his clothes. He yells at them to stop. But then he joins in with them and he beats this man with his gun and batons. Then at the end it gets a bit confusing.  A girl walks toward him to stop. He yells at her to stop and she doesn't understand his language most likely and keeps going so he raises his gun and fires. Then he notices that she was carrying a "flag white as snow". Then he says how now he carries that flag. And the chorus he's saying he will be a hero of war. And they will be so damn proud of him. And he will carry this flag to the grave if he must cause its the flag that he trusts.
Now do you see? What war can do to a man? First off he just wants to be a hero and everyone to be proud of him. He goes into war and tho he got his man, everyone began to beat the man and our first person doesn't like it.....then he changes and becomes evil and beats a man with family. Freinds and kids. So then there's an innocent woman with a white flag that he kills tho by accident he did it thru his stupidity and pride and evil. And then we he sees she held a white flag that changes him back and he sings the way chorus again. And this time his flag has changed from his nations to the "flag white as snow"..

Nothing new, but updates

Well today is saturday the uhhh.....24th. Yesterday was a pretty good day even tho I did nothing at all...I think today im gonna go get my hair cut again and maybe go to the city lights cafe or signature brew...The thing is I doubt any of these places are open. Its been two weeks since ive gotten my hair cut and I can barely even tell if its grown. You see im use to long hair. Mainly cause I've never been shown what GOOOODDD short hair looks like till I saw eddie eckels hair. Now some will saw oh we showed you james marsden hair. NUHUH he has long hair and its styled to look short.. Anywho eddie eckel is like one of two of my role models and heros that I really  look up to. The first one is bob alexander. But the reason that eddie is I've heard the things he has went thru as a kid like haveing practically raise is family. And I've had to do that my whole life and I still am. And to see how he is doing with his life NOW!!! gives me so much hope. Hope I've never really had. I just hope that one day i can be like him.....Then again he has an amazing wife as well and shes practically my mom. And tho I am not attracted to rebekah like that AT ALL I'd like to have a wife with the same personality and morals as her one day.Well I think thats all I get to share today hahaha ok well wolf out.

December 27th

December 27th

This was the day my life changed

It was late that night when I got the news

At first I didnt know how to react

My mind was rushing

The tears were gushing

I couldn't cry then tho, which always got me

I couldn't cry no matter how hard I tried

Life was just a haze

From that moment all the way to right before the receiving of friends

I don't remember a thing

And I remember crying all that day thinking I couldn't cry anymore

Then thats when I saw her laying there cold with no movement

And the unthinkable happened...I cried harder

What I realize now is that, that wasnt her

The real her I shall see her again

Has been two years since that day

There has been days where I pull my hair out and ball my eyes out thinking of her

There has been days where I just remain silent stareing off into space

Not a day goes bye that I don't think of her

But my favorite days are days where all I remember is the good times we had

Discussing the Cowboys

Discussing music

How she loved the Zac Brown Band

Tho days like these are few I cherish every. single. second of them and so should you!

R.I.P    Karla Elizabeth Allred

Dopple ganger and more me being punk

Ok so I was just browseing thru deviantart and i found the bottom picture.....Well at least to me they look similar. The girl at the top is a really close friend of mine whom which I love. And do you see the ring the girl is wearing? Well megan has, I think a few rings like that and she loves them too. Anywho its time to get off the subject of these most elegant and beautiful girls ;) .....So my parents are getting old always saying "turn that music down" "PULL YOUR PANTS UP!!!" and stuff like that and with myt fav shorts they do drag, and with the shirt I was wearing (my purple fanta shirt) because it was tight and not very long it would show my underwear every what 10 minutes? But anywho who likes punk music? -raises hand- yeah I dont care.....OK!! I would like to discuss a few things that has been putting me down, because I am not going to take it anymore III have to have some personal enjoyment in life I AM NOOOTTT gonna put up with anyone compareing me to someone ESPECIALLY when people say "oh he can do that better" ok excuse my french but frankly I DONT GIVE A DAMN!!!!  Im Tucker Xavier Moore, im no Shawn White, no Dave Grohl, or who the hell else. I do things to succeed but my PURE reason behind the things i do is to HAVE FUN! not to be the best cause something ive learned is there is ALWAYS someone better out there. always...So if you wanna go and compare me to others then I can leave cause apparently IM not good enough for you. And I really dont care. Cause everytime I start to care I get hurt, but then one person comes along to where I can trust them, i can beleive every word they say even if i know its a lie, I can be myself and I can be happy and I push myself to be happy for them and they accept me for who i am. I have three people in my life like that right now, and i love them to death. Ok and another thing im tired of people always bragging to me about all there fancy material things and the things they get to do with there friendsm again I dont give a damn, I may not have a Big Brand Name guitar or a fancy expensive camera, but AGAIN!!! I do things for the fun, to enjoy it. Men (or women) arent measured by how much of a man they are by how big or expensive their clothes are, BUT by the person wearing the clothes. So next time you go to anyone and start to brag take a look atr yourself in the mirror then think about all the crap the other person has been thru then choose your words carefully. Another thing WHERE THE HELL did everyones respect for me go? My own 6 year old sister wont even give me respect. Ok wells besides all that im pretty fine, im really happy, the only thing im scared about is this week im suppose to go to the fun factory and im really itching to get into a fight. And I dont want to fight, I love to fight but i dont want to be violent anymore. But to be honest i doubt any of my """"friends""" will even come.

Rise up!

Its official.  My parents have become too old. Why? Well let's see. One I turn my music up just a bit and they scream and cuss at me. Now you may say maybe it is too loud. Well explain why when I have my ear buds in and im five feet away they tell me to turn it off cause its too loud. Now me being the punk I am I of course reply with "YOUR TOO OLD!" . And usually they pay no attention.  Two I wear shorts and my green converse and a tightish black tee shirt and have my hair all spikey/messy and my mom and dad will either say you look stolid-mom or you look like a dumbass-dad... Now another viewpoint. Id I went to Asheville with some acquintances and a my best friends emma and Rebekah. And now all but one of these people were girls. And I spilled my drink in the car on my deadmau5 shirt so I went to buy a new one. They picked out a tight v-neck and they loved it and said it shows my muscles. Which I don't really have apparently. And I get home around 11 walk in the house all happy like and the first words out of my moms mouth was "that shirt makes you look fat". Not where did you get that? Or why did you buy a shirt?...bummer. But then this is the same person who has always bought shirts that are twice my size all thru my life until now cause I get money from work. Seriously I have shirts I wore in pictures from 5th grade that.now fit me nice and snug. Oh well. What can I do? Well as much as I would loovveeee to rise up and be rebellious. Its against gods laws. So im just gonna wait till I turn 18 and can get the heck out of this place!

I thought this was worth reposting

AM I INSANE?

"I beacame insane, with long intervals of horrible moments of sanity"-Edgar Allan Poe

Thinking upon thy's past

And looking upon thy's present

And the kind of person for I am today

I have seen that for I have changed in such a many a way

That once upon that old past

I couldn't have even begin to have comprehend these ways i would have changed

which makes thyself HAST!

to think

is these changes

ohhh these changes

been for ones good or worst?

For thyself shall never knoweth

But thy true

Jehovah

He, he shall always, always knoweth

my past

my present

and my future

But I do not knoweth....for now

So

until I knoweth wether or not

It is for good or worst

I shall Set on my way

upon

my path

my path

of hopefully righteousness

that lay in front of ones self

Break

im tired of the world right now so im gonna not post for awhile. good bye

What evs

Ok well no one has updated there blog lately besides me..........I has no life. So anywho on to the updates. I got to go roller skateing with my most excellent freinds megan, kaila, and lauren. My brother came alon which I didnt really mind. Except that everytime he fell if I was with in 5 feet he would blame me for. I've been watching smallville lately. Its this old tv show from a few years ago, about the story of superman but with drama. And lately I've been wearing alot of blue and black so of course I think im this guy.
 Yeah he's one of my favorites. He isnt that big of a character and not a lot of people know him, BUT I DO!!!! But anyway this is dick grayson a.k.a robin gone rogue. SO my life has been pretty good haveing some freindship issues with my favorite sister but other than that its all nice and smooth.

tisk tisk wolf wins again

Ok Lauren im sorry you just can't give me a hilarious embarrassing photo of you.WITHOUT knowing im going to share it with others!!! So anyway this is a picture of my best freind with her beiber hair.Hahahahaha anyway I dont have anything new to update you on really. Im reading The meaning on night by Michael Cox and its good so far, I dont get to read alot so im still on like page 26 which sucks cause I reallllyyy want to read it.

UP...DATES!!!!!

OK...WOW, its been awhile since Ive done one of these I litterally forgot I had a blog. Ok so anyway my lifes doing a whole lot better ^_^ im alot happier than usuall. I got to go waltzing with some of my friends. They werent greeeat at it but who CARES??? I LOVE TO WALTZ!!! So I got to see my bro randy and hang with my other bro Earl A.K.A Fluffy. We went to this place to eat before called Fiores....IT TWAS AMAAZING! I got the tortellini alla panna and it was amazing! I found it hilarious that the bathroom wallpaper was a bunch of books (not real it was printed on the paper) and people had put names of books on them most were actually intelligent not perverted. Ok so we are going to be getting BIGGER group to go contra danceing which is waltz and other sequenced dances. It willbe at the Grey Eagle in asheville at 8 p.m. Please come!!!! And in other news A bunch of my friends are going to see mutemath in march. I love this band and I told meggy that I wasnt going so if she hits me with a book for lieing to her Ill know she reads my posts on here hahaha. And anyway there will be five people are waiting 3 or 4 hours in the fast lane line to get good seats and save 12 seats! O_O and im in that group we are calling it the K-9 unit cause it is WOLF (me), Fennec (Devin Brady (i call him devi..a character out of name of the wind)), Ashton (girl to my right in the black dress, who danced quite excellent and I cant wait to tear up the floor with her on the 12th), Randy (tallest guy in the back in the brown with the awesome smile), and the she-wolf (Lacie hurst...She is not my mate, she maaayyy not be going), and is she-wolf doesnt come fennec's sister will Brenna...My veiw on Brenna: she should learn to use a drill hahaha, shes pretty cool, shes a jacket stealer so watch out (meh i dont care really my temperature runs 3 degrees higher than normal) she has good music taste and gets my taste in girls with hairy faces (hahaha inside story). And anyway I cant wait till march we got our assembly (which i maaaayyy have a very big surprise for some peoples).....anywho thats all for now. oh wait school ok so this homeschooling thing is eaassssyyy by my calculations *monical* ill be done right around my 17th birthdate. anywho i hope everyone has funn and shows up to waltz!

Books, Play, NEW ZEELLDDAA!!

Ok  first off ive read a couple of new books. A romance novel and a few edgar allen poe again. SO ive never really been in to romance novels but i cant find anything else to read, plus my best friend reads them.....Maybe mine sucked because 1 i have no sense of unrealness (but yet i dream and hope of things that will never happen, and im a hopeless romantic) or 2 this isnt a book by a big writer...like Lynn Kurkland. And I havent read the rest of book #3 out of a Knights tale yet. And i gave my best friend who also happens to be my 3 time ex, two of my fav. newer books. One is Beautiful Creatures (which by the way wassss only two book series but the writer just came out with a third one EP! i have it waiting for me at the book store.now to find some money) and the other is the second book to the Night Angel trilogy. I love this series im thinking about reading it again. but the only problem is that the second book is with sheyane..and it took her a month to read the first one (only took me a week to read all three) and not only that im sure megan eckel will want to see the second book after reading my second copy of the first book.(or she will be prissy and reject it like everyother book ive given her...OH wait thats rigghhttt she has only read one book out of like ten i have given her :PPP). Ok well about my play not only do i get to act like a girl in one scene but i get to act french and wear a chefs outfit and act chinese and wear a mandarin outfit. And theres a kiss scene so "swiftly" pointed out to me by the girl i kiss....OK it was no wear near swift it was more like hay looky here we kiss then a wink and raiseing up and down of the eyebrows. ANNDDDD THERES A NEW ZELDA GAME OUT!!!! yeah apparently im a zelda poser because i HAVE A LIFE!!!! and dont get to play all the zelda games (which i have done until november the 20th) and remember every bit of each games story line......I have a life. i work. i have to help take care of two kids that arent even mine (siblings) and not only that i have a personal life thats good assosiation and i dont have to hide all of my such great "fun" from home. Anyway this game got 10 out of 10 in game informer and thats rare and plus it was on jimmy fallon which up'ed it way up on my list. We have the brand new WII plus Mario Red edition and its still in the box. Ive been saving it for a moment like this. But again I have a life and my own bills to pay so i wont be able to go out and buy this game until like five months.ok now for the people who actually read my CRAP! im going to complain a bit now...enjoy ----->



Ok, well the heder/title has nothing to do with this paragraph. Ok well this week is suppose to be yes stressful but fun as heck! Its turning out to be ten times as stressful but not even for the reasons i thought it would be. And to top that apparently its make tucker feel like a peice of shit week. (no i refuse to edit this paragraph cause ive had enough of this world right now). And the people i usually lean on the most to be able to make me happy arent around or apparently have lives unlike me. Just once i wish i had a normal childhood. And ya know it sure would be nice sometimes to get away from some of my old friends and i dont mean the worldly ones. I dont know why but it may just be me (probably is) but they seem to piss me off sometimes i know why sometimes i dont. i just wish ah HA! ill temporarely delete my facebook and lose all contact with them!!! Ive been really depressed lately i wonder y.......WEll lets see this morning i was awakened to being yelled at by my mom about allllll my faults and weaknesses shes like her own little satan. And ya know i wish i could find someone besides adults who understand i mean the only people i REAALLLYYYYYY get along with are the older people like bob and joy or Mrs. E. yeah thats about it. im tired of this life and i want out i thought that maybe comeing back into the truth would help but it sure as hell hasnt. Well im gonna go sit in a dark corner curl up into a ball and read some dark poe.....hahaha i wish i have to go to work...again

Really upset

Ok as the title says im really upset and I can't talk to anyone about it because all the people I talk to are on facebook. And my mom is starting to check everything and tho I have nothing to hide very little things will make her freak out.  And recently as in a last week my mom was reproved from the kingdom hall. Eh.  I saw it coming. And anyway my mom seems to have it out for all my friends that are girls. But anyway back to the matter at hand. Why im scared is my mom came to me and said I have an elders meeting so Anywho I asked what for and she said in an angry tone Idk (a bullshit lie) something about the franklin hall calling over here about you. So not only does my mom think I only go over franklin to get a girl friend but so does everyone else. And it really pisses me off. And so at our meeting last night I asked the two elders im suppose to have this meeting with and they told me that it's just a check up from when I was reproved. So I went up to my mom and said oh mom they said it was justa check up and in front of god and everyone she got up in my face not only angry but with an attitude!  And says oh its alot more than that. So either my mom well never mind that's a given. But apparently either the elders lied or twisted the truth of some sort to me or are telling the truth. And to be honest I haven't done anything wrong! Which hurts me even worse. Sometimes like times like these I just want cut off all connection with my friends because when im not causing problems for them im getting in trouble. I mean who would really care if I did anyway? Im in facebook way too much. Im sorry but do u know what its like to be in the world leading a double life for years then give up on the truth for a whole year and come back. And then you find real friends that I suppose care for? Most likely no u don't and yes im addicted to my friends.

Updates

Ok well ive got a week till auditions for a band....im so freaking nervous ive NEVER been this nervous!!! I've known the drummer for coming up two years now and she has a dry sense of humor and is really short and fun to aggravate :) . And i have some awesome freinds. I started listening to one of my favorite bands cause i hadnt in like years they are the kooks and they are british. SO at work i made a the kooks statoin and all these other bands like the strokes and artic monkey popped up and next thing ya know im in love with all these new bands (new to me) so of course I go and talk to my best freind kaila. She has heard of everything! And loves it all. SO i cant wait to be in some sort of band either it be just me, or me and kaila which id like cause she has an amazing voice and i love angus and julia stone (i dont know if they r married or brother and sister) and me and kaila would play like them, or with lorna lee and her brother and sister and Samual hurst. Either way being in a band is awesome no matter how bad yall suck. Ive been in a bad band and a ok band both were really fun. SO anywho ive been playing guitar now for sayyyyy 7 months maybe? and I have never needed a capo until now! so i posted it up there! cause i still dont have this thing figured out. I needed this capo for the song same mistake by james blunt. OH!!! i almost forgot i finally figured out how to play the solo of crazy train or any song that requires useing ur playing hand to tap the strings. Im so proud of myself. I went to my friends house and got my toenails painted (i was held down by strong manly women!) and then was forced to wear guy linear,,, i actually looked hot with the guy linear hahaha.  And at a party before that i over heard two of my freinds talking about how they like me better than my nemesis GIO!!! BHA BHA BHA!!! hahaha idk y he despises me all i ever want and still want is peace unless he starts a fight then ill mess his world up! And i may get to pretty soon and get away with it! Ya see I am getting invited to play football with his congregation and the only competitoin i really see is little john man would i love to take give a reall good lick (tackle or hit) to him. Footballs rough! haha oh well peace! LOVE AND BE LOVED!!! see ya again soon. maybe

wow!!! (not world of warcraft)

OK so first off. I got 24 page veiws yester day... thats about a little more than a third of what i got last month! And a 14th of what ive gotten totall. But i have 50 posts and about 6.8 veiws per page. Anyway Ive been really happy lately. I think one of the main reasons is Becasue ive been listening to happy music again. Like one of my favs the kooks! And i found an amazing song tho i dont like to sing it i love palyiong it and singing the chorus. ITs do the panic by phantom planet. And 2 I found my best bro finally thats in the truth and isnt like oh everything is wrong. His name is zachary Brown and hes cool man! 3 because i got two amazing people in my life and they always cheer me up ^_^ kaila and megan! I love you too! sooo much. I cant wait to hang out with zacharay again last time we played games all night and at one point i started beat boxing WHICH I NEEEVVVEEERRR DO! and then zach started to rap and even tho it lasted like only 2 minutes it is a highlight of my LIFE!. I finally got over my writers block for guitar playing. I have wrote at least two songs in the past week or two. the first is to kaila keys named I'll knit you a Sweater. It doesnt have lyrics but maybe she will come up with some i wishh someone else would ask me to write them song cause i really dont have any inspiration. And the other one i havent really named its just a blues progression and i love it. i came up with it out of now where. I think the best songs made r the ones that hit u and not the one u try to make. im getting my haircut today so i hope ill look good.

Misconceptual Musical Mondays

Ok first off Id like to respond to my freinds post about audio books. I like them actually as long as I can have the book with me too incase i miss a few words. But I usually cant afford any audio books so therefore i read hardcopys. Ok now back to the topic of this post. Ok one thing i love to do is read a book while listening to my music. Now most people who I tell this to ask me if I ever get anything out of the book That I read. YES! Yes I do. I may not be smart but I know how to do the two things i really love alot at the same time. Now only if i can sing and play guitar at the same time.

1. What do u like to do while listening to music?
                I like to read or play basketball.

2. What was the last song you downloaded or bought?
                         Talk shows on mute ^_^ by Incubus

3.What was the last song u reccomended to a freind or a freind reccomened to you?
                                Talk shows on mute by Incubus!!!!!

On top of the world!!!

Ok well this week has been absolutely amazing!!!!! I have a new best freind and i can tell we will stay that way for a long time!!! Ive never really could decide what to do when i turn 18... Now I do! i want to go and move and split rent with a freind in franklin or otto. then once i feel good move to asheville!!! Ok so wednesday was awesome i got a box full of stuff from my freind kaila. And i have to burn one thing in it but eh its cool. And im going to be giving away my disco ball!!! and then that wednesday i got to roller skate again for the first time in 5 years. i was horrible, and I grew like a foot so that didnt help. And i traded my black hair tie for my best friends brown one. Ok yes i have short hair but heres some reasons why i wear a hair tie on my wrist: 1.Incase someone actually needs one to use. 2.I think it looks cool. 3.I like wearing it. 4.I like having it there incase I get bored and need something to play with haha. 5.idk i just like it so deal!!! Ok well megna got a picture of me with a girly clip in my hair and two itty bitty pony tails. I might try and get it off her computer the 5th when i get to take my best freind over to see my favorite family! And last night was another great day! and NIGHT! AND MORNING!!!! hahaha me and zachary went over to the keys and got to play football but my favorite part was just staying in kailas room with the lights off when it was nice and mellow and then giving megan a massage and playing guitar! Almost had to put kaila on a leash for a minute cause zach kept hitting her with the darts from a dart gun. good thing i still know how to do a triangle choke with my legs.....i didnt get her around the neck just her leg hahah still nworked considering im 100 pounds more than kit kat (my nickname for kaila). And me and zack stayed up till 3 playing video games.I got a 100 singing so what chya want on expert!!!! And then we played monopoly. Cant wait till next wednseday...and that week will be amazing as well... I LOVE ALL U GIRLS AND MY BRO ZACH!!!

There is nothing like it (the series) #1 FEAR

There is nothing like seeing the fear in a opponents eyes. Whether it be in sports or just everyday life or the calm before the storm of  a fight. But better than that is to see the pure black pool of evil in a persons eyes and knowing just knowing you are about to take him down. No knowing you have the ability to take them down. But better than THAT is being able to see the fear in a runts eyes and see the darkness in the bigger alpha dogs eyes and being able to step into make a difference. Then there's nothing better than to be able to walk and have a path made for u just by the fear others have towards u.

Love

For a grown man cry at the sight of his young boy accomplishing his dreams

For a husband to comfort his wife no matter how bad life seems

For a mother to love her young in her darkest hour

For a child to rejoice over creating such a simple block tower

For two loved ones ability to sing a symphony with one look

For all the tears and laughter and heart warming adventures in one book

For two people in love to have that one moment of peace where all the pain and stress goes away and all that love is at bay

For the children who see the laughter in the simplest thing and the child who can be occupied with just a string

For all the beautiful things that were giving us. Whether it be a moment, or a scene, or a giggle, or laughter, or tears of joy, or the smile of one who never smiles, or anything that can come to mind. I thank thee jah for all that I appreciate, my friends, my music, my books, ur wildlife, ur forests, ur sunsets, ur flowers and trees and the infinite other things I thank thee. But one thing I thank u for the most.  For you are the god of it. I will never be able to.give as much as u do. But I want to thank thee for it love. Urs. There's. And mine. LOVE!

Nothing left to say

Ok well im tired of always being depressed and what not so im out playing basketball and golf. Once it warms up again im going to start back skateboarding which I haven't done in three years. I might quit clogging cause of reasons id rather not go into. Im officially 155 pounds. I lost 25 pounds but I still dint have a six pack. Im looking to buy a tremolo bar for my strat and maybe a new pick guard.this Thursday after service ill be playing with a new band. Hopefully ill get the part. And besides all that I get to go to the biltmore house with some friends. And I found a knot im my arm at the top muscle and I don't know how I got it its been two fays and itsstill there.  Mom wants me to go to the doctor but meh who cares anyway. Haha she's was like what if u die because of that? I was like good then it'll put me out mine and everyone elses misery I laughed she didn't.so anyway im off of here cya peace!

ways to lose weight

1. Eating breakfast is a very important step. You actually gain weight when you dont eat breakfast.
2. If your going to pick a specific diet make sure dont cheat yourself and stick to it. Studies have shown that to make something a habit u have to do it for 10 consecutive days and the chain is broke if u dont follow it for three days in a row.
3. Choosing a plan is hard. the things u need to keep into careful consideration is:

• what your weight is now and what you want it to be
• your environment. you may think this is stupid but if your plan includes physical activity then u need to know your surroundings
• Physical activity. is not mandotory. BUT!! If u do have physical activity then you need to know your limits! no pain no gain is wrong it should be no burn no gain if your muscles or bones hurt then stop and go see a doctor..(burning and hurting is two different things burning can sometimes hurt but stop being a pansy and suck it up..no offense)
• Your schedule. your plan will rely alot upon your schedule and you may find the "perfect" diet plan but if iit doesnt fit in with your schedule then it goes horribly wrong.

4. At the start of your program you may not lose weight right off....dont feel down. give it some time to work like maybe a week or two.
5. Dont starve yourself! I've seen too many people get too sick because they never eat.
6. If you have a set time to eat.but your not hungry, DONT EAT!!! Doctors have proven that when you eat when your not hungry is bad for you. you should skip this meal even if its breakfast.
7. Have confidence! No matter how big you may be you need to have the ability to look in the mirror and say."danggg i am one fine peice of work! and if you dont like me the way i am then i dont need u!"
8. If at the end of your program you havent reached your goal weight then you clearly need to move the end date of the program ahead..BUT if you havent made any progress since day one then you need a new program.
9. No matter what your program or plan is, you need to drink plenty of fluids. Preferably water and teas (not sweet or unsweet tea)
10.Last off. dont wear make up it actually makes you gain weight. And no matter what the end result is, you did great beacues you tried and you know now that you have the abilitty to try again!

Nothing new....or is there?

Ok well first off i got my mandolin back from this place called guitar stop..i officially hate it. The owner thinks he knows it all. And i don't care if he DID know it all you still should have some manners and treat others with respect. I know someone who i wouldn't be surprised if e did know it all.. bob alexander and why I think that is cause he is always quiet and respectful and well has soooo much knowledge and wisedom and has alot of patience. And bob is my role model! Ok well i got my mandolin back and of course i get critisised by my family. And i was givin a family heirloom that belonged to my great uncle. Its a dobro slide guitar and has a resinator in it. You see my grandmaw and her brothers were in a band and even recorded in johnny cashs' studio. But anyway when i got it it smelled of mold and had stains all over but i fixed it up and all i need now is to find some heavy guitar strings. Well anyway its been a good and sickening weekend all together. And I've found my wonder twin and my sis is sick but i know shes going to get better cause i told her she would and by god when i say somethings going to happen it will.i just wish i could go visit her and yeah i don't care about germs viruses and diseases...y? Because germs viruses and diseases are scared of me and run like heck. Heck id even kiss her if it meant transfering that sickness to me. But alas i can't so for know we all haw to just put up with our problems.

Challenge

Ok im going to try and stop being me....sounds stupid but if u reallllly knew me ud hate me. Im going to go on a quest. Im going see whether i should be funny or not. Be happy or sad. Or maybe mad. I need to find out who i am. I am going to rid this form of all emotions for as long as i can.  Im going to quit me. And whether u think this is a good idea or not it doesn't matter there's nothing or no obe who can stop me.I am unstoppable. So if i see u...which i highly doubt will ever happen anytime soon but if u see me and i seem to be in a monotone.well then im still figureing out me

What do I have left?

What dooo i have left? Cause i don't know. My whole life I've played football.raised to play.and that's all i can see now. It hurts so much ill just sit on my bed sobbing with tears and pulling at what hair i have while listening to the boys of fall. That's all i know how to do. I don't have anything else goinfor me right now. I just don't know what to do. I do everthing ok or bad. But football was a whole other story. I was great! I set two school records as a freshman and for half the season i had a broke arm! I broke the most interceptions in a season and most yards after catches........with a broke arm. I never complained i never back talked i was perfect. We were a brother hood. And now im in the truth and my so called brother and sisters r rejecting me my friend who has been my sister for ever hates me and so does her family im.being bullied by a baptized brother and no one cares or does anything! Where in the hell is the respect! Yeah i get im.not worth anything but even a tiny mouse deserves his justice. Do you know what its like to be able to wall into a classroom and kids ur own age and older look up to and look to u for protection? No u don't cause most people have lived sheltered lives andhave no clue wha the world islike! I was raised poor and still am and in a small town like this football is everything. I went to a football game the other day and some kid I've never seen came up to me and said " are you Tucker? #23? I saw u play! Your a beast on the feild! Will u throw ball with me?" I busted out into tears and toldthe kid i'd be honored. His dad saw that and asked me why i cried. Andi told him that i love football and that i should have never quit. And i told him to let his boy do what makes him happy. And he busted into tears. So here i sit sobbing and choking on my tears wondering why in the hell am i still liveing?

MMM..Misconceptual Musical Mondays

Ok so here's three questions.
1.What was the last song tht made u cry and y?
2.If you were in a band what would be the band name?
3.If could tour the world with one band whether they r deador not who would u tour with?

WARNING! DO NOT READ THIS!

Ok well im just going to go try some more reasons on why I do things and other useless crap tha pitys me.ok well alot of people say I cry alot. Well last week I only cried five times.once because we were watching my favorite cartoon ever in a car and it was a single tear.the second was because my mom got up in my face telling me how I disgust her and how im not worth anything and that ill never make it to the new system. And the only reason I don't kill myself is because I want every chance in the world to try and make it in the new system I have been told all my life that I was never going to make it there its not a privilege anymore its a goal and a challenge.there is sometimes that I just want to kill myself but I know I can't because I have a family t take care and even tho they get onto me and yells at me I stil need to take care of them. The third was because megan cheered me up when I was in such a low state and the fourth was again the same reason.the fifth was because Idk y. All I know was I sitting on my bed and my eyes just started I wasn't sobbing or anything I just did Idk it wasn't weird its happened before.well ok im not going explain y I cried when my got on to me cause any one who had a lick of common sense can figure out. But the reason y I cried when I watched that cartoon episode is cause it takes me back to just for a short 7 mintues in my childhood wasn't ruined. Now I still may be a child age wise or physically but ever since ty was born I have been having to play father cause well my "dad" is always at work and then comes home to watch tv and go to bed while yelling at someone all the while. But he has gotten better tho with ty and erica tho. I mean the things they get away with if I so much thought about at there age or now for that matter I wouldn't be able to sit down for weeks they'd whip my butt so hard. The reason I cried megan cheered me up is that whether shes my friend or not she cheered me up and I have never had any one there to do that for me thru my life span. And the reason I shed a single tear over the mod simplest and littlest things like say a song is cause I haven't ever been able to enjoy it or anything else and even tho I may have heard that song many a times just that one time whether im with my best friend or in my room bored im hearing that song for the first time as beauty. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me cause then ill feel bad. The reason I write all my problems is cause well I never get to really talk about these things and I guess it just feels good to get it out. And this blog truly is a blessing y? Because my mom doesn't read it and I can say what I truly feel. Now I only talk to very few people about these things is cause they either ask or because I need them but there are certain people like lauren Eckel and other people who I will never discuss because well I like them so much I think they deserve the best parts of me. Ok well I told u not to read this but if you did ...thank u and I send u my love</p>
<p>P.s. feedback would be nice</p>

Life in a fox hole

Well lately life has been treating me like..... well more like beating me.there have been times where I've wondered if god really even exists anymore and times where god is the only thing I got. My mom just had surgerey for something she ddnt even need. And so I have been haveing to take care of my brother and sisters from now on in. You might ask where my dad is..weeelllllllll my birthfather is in jail. And the so called "dad" that married my mom when I was two could give a shit less about me really I mean the last time we said more than a few words to each other was when I went to a game and went and sat with my friends and realized halfway thru the game my "dad" was sitting behind me and I said hay....that was over a month ago. He screams and yells at me and if I do good he'll throw me up against a wall and cuss at me. And my mom well she does the same except throwing me up against a wall. And I have told people my plans about how when im 18 im moving out. Sine people ask y I just dont stay there a little longer. Well its not because I want out which I do but because that's when im getting kicked out. And along with that my mom might die. And to make matters worse I have gotten mad and have a real quick temper lately and mood changes. One minute ill be cussing one of my best freinds whom I love (kit kat) and the next im crying asking for forgiveness and advice in wht to do. And another person who we really aren't friends or not atleast yet in my mind. But anyway we have been talking more than I ever remember and we have fought twice already (meggellys). I haven't told certain people these things because one I don't thing they deserve to be wrapped up in my crap (lauren...no one really should have ever gotten wrapped up in it) or because I jus don't know u and ur not my friend and we just talk or hang out some (lorna) either way im sorry for everything I've done to my friends..the only safe place I have any more is my room. And I haven't been to a meeting in about two months. I use to never miss one. But then I called everyone to get a ride. I thought I had some friends over here. Apparently not, I mean I had a meeting with the elders and they didn't even ask about where I've been. I haven't gotten one single phone call or nothing I mean I live right next to an elder for gods sake! Where is this "brotherly love" at? So as far as im concerned my life will be fine when im 18 and out of this lyeing inbreed state.

One Fair Day

Ok well I have nothing to update books wise ive read just about the most I can bear right now. wait i did read the squires tale #2.Maybe I already blogged about it.-goes and looks-............................................Ok no i havent ok well anyway this book is well I will give it 3.5 stars ..ok the reason them stupid stars are up there instead of over here is cause i dont feel like fixing it sorry.But any way this series is made up of a lot of short books. The second one was ok in the beginning and then a little bit better then WHAM!!! some thing happens between the main character and the king (i loved that part) and then it climaxs and border lines all the way to the end which i loved. If you are into medieval storys, fantasy storys, or both like me and my best fre...my friend Meggellys does then this is a must read. Ok now back to what I came here to write about. -le sigh- Ok well me and my best friends went to the fair the other day.Im getting happy again just thinking about it. Well I had an amazing time:
Megan said:
"hmmm... I think my favorite part was dancing to "Bottoms Up" while waiting in line. I liked "The Pirate" the best. I liked the first time we went on it. hahaha"
Lorna said: So what was your favorite ride?
"The Himalaya. I remember riding it Im not sure how long ago with my mom, it wasn't that one specifically but it was the same ride and it was just as fun as I remembered it to be."
And what was your favorite part of that day?
"Hmm I think just being able to hang out with my friends and all of us having an awesome time together with out being bored out of our skulls."
Kailas thoughts on the subject have yet to be known i will update this post soon tho.
My favorite part was actually being able to be in asheville for the first time and have a good time.Plus I was with my sister and my two friends. there was only one down time if that. FOr me my down part was when i actually started to think.....well as in i wonder off and i am like in my own demension thats when megan started to wave her hand in my face and then we got on the himalaya..and again sometimes it does suck to be the bigger one like on rides that spin u around u get squished but ive been thru worse so it was nothing. Tho at one point i couldnt feel my foot for a moment.And I am really glad i got to tag along and thankful i have such an awesome sis and freinds. I cant wait till we get together again which might be at some skillet raven party? idk i asked if i was invited and i got an imediate no from the girls so i  get it its cool but kaila is going to try and teach me to swing dance at another party or get together....I tried swing dancing at mcdonalds with her and i cant dance apparently without ghettoing it out.Im sure that will be fun.And then i have to help with alot of my best friend sheyanes graduation party which i wont be going to because its in december and if u know me that is my last work month and im not taking any off days cause its the last time i get to work before i start back homeschooling.Well i am extremly upset i wont get to dance with my friends and slow dance with emma which is the most cutest thing on the earth to me.. and i wont get to make lauren try to do anything really which if u knew her u would know that i love to tease and aggravate her cause she is the one who enjoys sitting in dark corners doing nothing.But the bright side of it is i wont have to go and see half of the people i hate in the world :)...well i think im done so ill see who ever reads this later unless i dont know that is.BYEZ!

MMM......Misconceptual Musical Mondays

1. Whats the first sing u heard or listened to today?

2.what's your favorite techno'ish song?

3. If you were in a band what instrument would u play?(u don't have to really know how to play it)

A1. Ok im pretty sure it was people=$#@% by slipknot
A2. Harder,better,faster,stronger by daft punk
A3. Guitar and vocals

just boring.....or is it? yeah it is

Ok well im considering quitting blogging...I may start a new one on tumblr but Idk I mean I like writing and all but I like feedback as well...its just like this stupid town I want to to do more but I can't.well I finished reading the squires tale 2 I thank megan Eckel so flipping much for reminding me of my most favorite of books that I haven't finised the series yet. Well ever heard of the girl next door?  Well it's like the hot girl next door that the guy likes and some guys fantasies -rolls eyes- well I just realized im the boy next door..there is this stupid little blonde girl who visits her grandparents every year more than once and like every time I see her I always have my shirt off doing something hot like working on something playing basketball or playing guitar..and she flirts with me all the time.well besides tht I read something that makes me want to g back to not ever giving a $&*% about anything...."the person who always cares about everyone and trys to make everyone happy is always lonely"...well besides that I get t go to the fair with by far my bestest friends ever! And I am going to win that stupid $200 on the bull ride and im going to buy a plate with the money too...and for some reason I want a new kitty one that is blonde

MMM....Misconceptual Musical Mondays

K this is not a spinoff of Megans WWW this is my own thing!!!
1.What was the first thing you listened to this morning..or night?
2.Whats your favorite type of music and why?
3.AND! If you could perform one song flawlessly on stage what would it be?

Answer:
1.Higher by Creed
2.mostly everything but if I had to die to choose I'd pick rock 'n' roll all the way
3.Havent really thought of that..maybe thats why I asked it..Ok I would have to say Slight return by Jimi Hendrix..CAsue he is amazing and i love the song

Tucker the Fae

Love what is it? Hmmmmm.???? IDK. Love to me is seeing the trees and rotting leaves underneath it and knowing that tree is conected forever to the earth.They are one! The tree didn't ask for this but neither did the earth.BUT neither complains.You might think that is because they can't speak. Well sorry to disappoint but they do in such a way that no one can explain but feel even I can barely begin to comprehend there speech.The tree why it provides us with air in its most simpilist functions.It gives earth the most beautiful sight o look upon or up at.And earth why she returns the favor with thin and thick blades of over 100's of different shades of green grass and millions of different types of beautiful shoots of flowers.Such beauty cannot be harnessed.Then these evil despicable creatures come and destroy and desimate what GOD HIMSELF gave them! They come and destroy once was theirs to build monstrous things of metal and for what? FOr their love of their type of green "beauty" (money). And for I to be apart of these creatures makes me want to vomit. For I sall never, NEVER be one of them! I shall die alone, yes I am lonely that maybe eone day I might find such a love that i feel for the worlds natural beauty around me in a human. This natural beauty that was given to us by god and and was meant to stay but one day it shall all be restored.....................one day.

WWW thing and other craaaappp

ok im currently reading The squires tales #2 and it rocks!!!
Just got done reading.uuhhhh ummmm lets see it nwas the uhh i cant remember....
I wanna read the squires tales #3..OHHH!!! i just finished reading The squires tales #1 which i gave to my best freind.ok im going to start a new thing just like megan's www wednesdays but mine is going to be called music monday!!!!! :D   any way im going to go ahead and make one for this monday...i have to take my permit test today and i have musical theater and havent slept at ALLL!!!! the past few days!!! im tottally going to fail EPICALY AND ROYALLY!!!

Updates and moore

Ok so for all of my viewers (none) I would like to say.............boo. yeah im really bored but my bestest friend and loved sister got me hooked on his game and I tink half the reason I play it is to try and beat her at it. But either way im one of those guys who doesn't care for the end result but enjoys the challenge I think my sis just wants yo win but she wlhas been playing since like 5inches ago (very long time). I got my debit card last night .....no wait it was this morning at 2. I also got the squires tales# 2 and am looking forward to reading it.I had a hilarious burn the other night.  Someone said im cool as crap. So I came back with most crap is body temperature so ur not cool at all. I wore my deadmau5 shirt to the game a few days ago and the only persons that knew who they were was a gay man which we ended up talking for like 5 mnutes.oh and im still working on quitting the game which I have every word ready to type all in my head just evrytime I get to do it I get distracted.and ne and this one kid from clyde have never really gotten aplong but we r testing each other and we aren't friends but we r cool....also im gointo get to go play guitar at shys party in a couple of months while she sings who knew by pink. But its most likely I wont depending on who shows up to the party. Cause lately a guy in our hall who just got there some time back is a bully. Now I had go put up with bullies my whole life until the day I had enough and beat the living crap out of the bully who was clearly twice my size and that was 5th grade when I was 4' 2" and 75lbs.. and im sorry to say this but im either going to beat the hell out of him or quit going to our meetings and go to north or south franklins meetings.all that's all I can think of at the moment so ill see all zero of you guyses lata.

Reply to musing mondays

What was the last book you…
• borrowed from the library?
• bought?
• cried over?
• disliked and couldn’t finish?
• read & loved?
• got for review? (or: got in the mail?)
• gave to someone else?
• stayed up too late reading?

I haven't ever borrowed a book from the library.
I just bought squire tales two but it hasn't come in yet ugh.
omg cried? Idk if I can give out that information ....yeah right. To be honest I don't ever remember crying over a book but my gut says otherwise so I will think about it....
read and couldn't finish hmmmm uhhh let's see juliet mirelly or something book.
 Read and loved the night angel trilogy or the one book by alex finn im reading.
I haven't ever ever got one for reveiw and for the one I gave away let's see the way of shadows to u andkaila (u after kailas done) ....
to late reading would have to beeeeee -drum roll- the king killer chronicles by patric rothfuss...........................



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Upcoming

Ok well imma going to be working on a new post that imma going to expect to be verrrrryy long. K itsgoing to be called givvnup the game I want some one to try and guess wha its about. I deleted my facebook account and made a new one cause all my old friends foundme ugh. Anyway imma going t be typeing this new post on my new old typer imma going to clean up

Tired of it all.

Well im tired of haveing to change to be someones friend or to get the girl.I want a girl and I want her to like me for me.I just wanna be there for thru thick and thin even if she doesn't like me the way I like her and when she's down I wanna be the one to build her up and when she cries to be the one to put my hand on her shoulder and to convince her everything is ok......im tired of opening up to people I only wanna open up to people like my sisters.I feel like a girl.

Just because

Hay you guys this will my first blog in a looonnng time..im nervous again cause I have some awesome greinds who write awesome blogs. Anyway my friend is going to dragon con..he is going as a fallout character..I plan on going next year if im not in australia as kylar stern a.k.a. the night angel...anyway he is a wetboy a.k.a. assasin. He is a character in my recently read series the night angel trilogy. Any way I said I might be in australia that's right I might be going to australia as a foriegn exchange student.I am still playing guitar and loving it.

I will:..... to whom ever

i will:

-love u forever till my last breath

 -make up for everything i have done wrong to you

 -and be with u even after death
-and cry with u
-kiss u when u need it
-die for u

- hold u when ur alone
-and be in ur heart when im gone

-tell u i love u

-say ur beautifull even tho you are dripping with sweat and mucus and tears and make up in sweats

-cuddle even tho your sick as dog and risking getting ur illness
-fullfill your wildest dreams

-give you everything but I can't cause i dont have possession over you
-be the one you want to go to when you have a problem
-give you my world but I dont have one if your not in here
-be there when your mad and never leave
-give you my shoulder when you are in greave
-always be...just be
-always there
-always right or wrong without argue
-always be strong when ur weak and weak when ur strong
-always apoligize even when im right

.......WHY? cause you mean something to me!


P.S. I hate cuddling!