UP...DATES!!!!!

OK...WOW, its been awhile since Ive done one of these I litterally forgot I had a blog. Ok so anyway my lifes doing a whole lot better ^_^ im alot happier than usuall. I got to go waltzing with some of my friends. They werent greeeat at it but who CARES??? I LOVE TO WALTZ!!! So I got to see my bro randy and hang with my other bro Earl A.K.A Fluffy. We went to this place to eat before called Fiores....IT TWAS AMAAZING! I got the tortellini alla panna and it was amazing! I found it hilarious that the bathroom wallpaper was a bunch of books (not real it was printed on the paper) and people had put names of books on them most were actually intelligent not perverted. Ok so we are going to be getting BIGGER group to go contra danceing which is waltz and other sequenced dances. It willbe at the Grey Eagle in asheville at 8 p.m. Please come!!!! And in other news A bunch of my friends are going to see mutemath in march. I love this band and I told meggy that I wasnt going so if she hits me with a book for lieing to her Ill know she reads my posts on here hahaha. And anyway there will be five people are waiting 3 or 4 hours in the fast lane line to get good seats and save 12 seats! O_O and im in that group we are calling it the K-9 unit cause it is WOLF (me), Fennec (Devin Brady (i call him devi..a character out of name of the wind)), Ashton (girl to my right in the black dress, who danced quite excellent and I cant wait to tear up the floor with her on the 12th), Randy (tallest guy in the back in the brown with the awesome smile), and the she-wolf (Lacie hurst...She is not my mate, she maaayyy not be going), and is she-wolf doesnt come fennec's sister will Brenna...My veiw on Brenna: she should learn to use a drill hahaha, shes pretty cool, shes a jacket stealer so watch out (meh i dont care really my temperature runs 3 degrees higher than normal) she has good music taste and gets my taste in girls with hairy faces (hahaha inside story). And anyway I cant wait till march we got our assembly (which i maaaayyy have a very big surprise for some peoples).....anywho thats all for now. oh wait school ok so this homeschooling thing is eaassssyyy by my calculations *monical* ill be done right around my 17th birthdate. anywho i hope everyone has funn and shows up to waltz!

Books, Play, NEW ZEELLDDAA!!

Ok  first off ive read a couple of new books. A romance novel and a few edgar allen poe again. SO ive never really been in to romance novels but i cant find anything else to read, plus my best friend reads them.....Maybe mine sucked because 1 i have no sense of unrealness (but yet i dream and hope of things that will never happen, and im a hopeless romantic) or 2 this isnt a book by a big writer...like Lynn Kurkland. And I havent read the rest of book #3 out of a Knights tale yet. And i gave my best friend who also happens to be my 3 time ex, two of my fav. newer books. One is Beautiful Creatures (which by the way wassss only two book series but the writer just came out with a third one EP! i have it waiting for me at the book store.now to find some money) and the other is the second book to the Night Angel trilogy. I love this series im thinking about reading it again. but the only problem is that the second book is with sheyane..and it took her a month to read the first one (only took me a week to read all three) and not only that im sure megan eckel will want to see the second book after reading my second copy of the first book.(or she will be prissy and reject it like everyother book ive given her...OH wait thats rigghhttt she has only read one book out of like ten i have given her :PPP). Ok well about my play not only do i get to act like a girl in one scene but i get to act french and wear a chefs outfit and act chinese and wear a mandarin outfit. And theres a kiss scene so "swiftly" pointed out to me by the girl i kiss....OK it was no wear near swift it was more like hay looky here we kiss then a wink and raiseing up and down of the eyebrows. ANNDDDD THERES A NEW ZELDA GAME OUT!!!! yeah apparently im a zelda poser because i HAVE A LIFE!!!! and dont get to play all the zelda games (which i have done until november the 20th) and remember every bit of each games story line......I have a life. i work. i have to help take care of two kids that arent even mine (siblings) and not only that i have a personal life thats good assosiation and i dont have to hide all of my such great "fun" from home. Anyway this game got 10 out of 10 in game informer and thats rare and plus it was on jimmy fallon which up'ed it way up on my list. We have the brand new WII plus Mario Red edition and its still in the box. Ive been saving it for a moment like this. But again I have a life and my own bills to pay so i wont be able to go out and buy this game until like five months.ok now for the people who actually read my CRAP! im going to complain a bit now...enjoy ----->



Ok, well the heder/title has nothing to do with this paragraph. Ok well this week is suppose to be yes stressful but fun as heck! Its turning out to be ten times as stressful but not even for the reasons i thought it would be. And to top that apparently its make tucker feel like a peice of shit week. (no i refuse to edit this paragraph cause ive had enough of this world right now). And the people i usually lean on the most to be able to make me happy arent around or apparently have lives unlike me. Just once i wish i had a normal childhood. And ya know it sure would be nice sometimes to get away from some of my old friends and i dont mean the worldly ones. I dont know why but it may just be me (probably is) but they seem to piss me off sometimes i know why sometimes i dont. i just wish ah HA! ill temporarely delete my facebook and lose all contact with them!!! Ive been really depressed lately i wonder y.......WEll lets see this morning i was awakened to being yelled at by my mom about allllll my faults and weaknesses shes like her own little satan. And ya know i wish i could find someone besides adults who understand i mean the only people i REAALLLYYYYYY get along with are the older people like bob and joy or Mrs. E. yeah thats about it. im tired of this life and i want out i thought that maybe comeing back into the truth would help but it sure as hell hasnt. Well im gonna go sit in a dark corner curl up into a ball and read some dark poe.....hahaha i wish i have to go to work...again

Really upset

Ok as the title says im really upset and I can't talk to anyone about it because all the people I talk to are on facebook. And my mom is starting to check everything and tho I have nothing to hide very little things will make her freak out.  And recently as in a last week my mom was reproved from the kingdom hall. Eh.  I saw it coming. And anyway my mom seems to have it out for all my friends that are girls. But anyway back to the matter at hand. Why im scared is my mom came to me and said I have an elders meeting so Anywho I asked what for and she said in an angry tone Idk (a bullshit lie) something about the franklin hall calling over here about you. So not only does my mom think I only go over franklin to get a girl friend but so does everyone else. And it really pisses me off. And so at our meeting last night I asked the two elders im suppose to have this meeting with and they told me that it's just a check up from when I was reproved. So I went up to my mom and said oh mom they said it was justa check up and in front of god and everyone she got up in my face not only angry but with an attitude!  And says oh its alot more than that. So either my mom well never mind that's a given. But apparently either the elders lied or twisted the truth of some sort to me or are telling the truth. And to be honest I haven't done anything wrong! Which hurts me even worse. Sometimes like times like these I just want cut off all connection with my friends because when im not causing problems for them im getting in trouble. I mean who would really care if I did anyway? Im in facebook way too much. Im sorry but do u know what its like to be in the world leading a double life for years then give up on the truth for a whole year and come back. And then you find real friends that I suppose care for? Most likely no u don't and yes im addicted to my friends.

Updates

Ok well ive got a week till auditions for a band....im so freaking nervous ive NEVER been this nervous!!! I've known the drummer for coming up two years now and she has a dry sense of humor and is really short and fun to aggravate :) . And i have some awesome freinds. I started listening to one of my favorite bands cause i hadnt in like years they are the kooks and they are british. SO at work i made a the kooks statoin and all these other bands like the strokes and artic monkey popped up and next thing ya know im in love with all these new bands (new to me) so of course I go and talk to my best freind kaila. She has heard of everything! And loves it all. SO i cant wait to be in some sort of band either it be just me, or me and kaila which id like cause she has an amazing voice and i love angus and julia stone (i dont know if they r married or brother and sister) and me and kaila would play like them, or with lorna lee and her brother and sister and Samual hurst. Either way being in a band is awesome no matter how bad yall suck. Ive been in a bad band and a ok band both were really fun. SO anywho ive been playing guitar now for sayyyyy 7 months maybe? and I have never needed a capo until now! so i posted it up there! cause i still dont have this thing figured out. I needed this capo for the song same mistake by james blunt. OH!!! i almost forgot i finally figured out how to play the solo of crazy train or any song that requires useing ur playing hand to tap the strings. Im so proud of myself. I went to my friends house and got my toenails painted (i was held down by strong manly women!) and then was forced to wear guy linear,,, i actually looked hot with the guy linear hahaha.  And at a party before that i over heard two of my freinds talking about how they like me better than my nemesis GIO!!! BHA BHA BHA!!! hahaha idk y he despises me all i ever want and still want is peace unless he starts a fight then ill mess his world up! And i may get to pretty soon and get away with it! Ya see I am getting invited to play football with his congregation and the only competitoin i really see is little john man would i love to take give a reall good lick (tackle or hit) to him. Footballs rough! haha oh well peace! LOVE AND BE LOVED!!! see ya again soon. maybe