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Monday, January 30, 2012

Evil Echo

I scream for you
And all I hear is an echo
An echo with in my mind and heart

I was fed these emotions
Ones that I feel haven't been true
You say they are but they always say actions speak louder than words

I live today but barely holding on
I do stupid things with no fear
I think of the simplest thing and I think of you and then there is a tear

Seeing today and fearing tomorrow
Living yesterday and dieing today

Fear life
Embrace death

Shun the light
Take hold of the darkness

HEAR THAT ECHO OF THE HEART
FEAR THE LIGHT OF YOU
BREAK THE BONDS

Knock down the walls of intimidation
Scream to the moon

I gave my eyes to the sun
I never said goodbye to anyone

Leaving you in that bed
How that bed was so stained
Stained with scarlet red

You left me for dead
With the worms and maggots
We will see whose eyes rot first

Buried ten feet in
Waiting to see the first to fall
When we fell at the same time



Friday, January 27, 2012

MUST READ!!! Video break down

.........CCAARRRIIIIOONNN!!!!!!.....................
-straightens tie- HMM hmmm
 
     Ok. Now thats done I would like to say a few things before I get into some deep stuff here kiddo's. First WHHYYY??? will blogger not let me tab? It makes it really hard on me to count out five spaces haha. Second the carrion I just screamed was from one of my favorite songs ever that almost make sme cry every time. The name of the song is carrion by Parkway Drive. The begining is HUGE!!! I love hitting those notes! You use your diaphram alot to scream. But I like it. Cause every time I scream carrion I use as much energy as I can and I kinda shake and tense my whole body. I feel so..... at peace when I scream that.

     So. I think im going to put a link to the new Star Wars Old Republic Game. (<- click to watch youtube video) This video made me cry. YES I SAID CRY!!!!!! I am a huge dork and huge geek and I love music. So when you put one of my favorite movies (star wars) and make it into a game and then post the EPIC! gameplay on youtube with one of my favorite songs ( Carrion by Parkway Drive ) well you get me crying in front of a computer screen watching the same video 10 times. (side note: February 10th this year star wars is coming out in 3D :') you can bet big money I'm going to see every one!!!)

     Have you watched it yet? The star wars old republic gameplay? Well if you havent you might as well stop watching cause im about to go deep here haha.....

     Ok. So the gameplay is from what I have seen is amazing. But I'm here to talk about this video and what you see. Ok you from the begining there is some pretty cool battleing between jedi and siths. The first fight scene with the green saber jedi and the main sith is m y second favorite out of them all in the video, there is little things that I didn't catch till I watched it again and again. Like for instance besides the part where the jedi totally jumps over the saber throw at 0:36, but at 0:50 to 0:54 there is a part where the jedi and sith lock sabers and then the jedi just hits him with the staff end of his lightsaber, I LOVED thatt!!! I really like that this game has more..how you say fighting with hand to hand combat like in the first episode star wars with obi-won and darth maul (in my opinion best fight scene out of the movies).

     But, now for my favorite character out of this video and fight scene. Right at 1:10 you see the i suppose commander of the republic commando marine clone troopers? The one without his helmet. And he sees the sith, sees the bullets and what not arent doing anything. SO like the bad ass he really is he just charges him!!!!! I MEAN GOOD LORD!!!!! How awesome is that? Here is a clone! They don't get alot of respect but they give it EVERYTHING!!! RISKS IT ALL!!! Knowing they can be replaced as easy as pie! And that made me ball my eyes out. So he takes the sith head on and about five feet from the sith the sith uses his eletricity to electricute the marine. What does the marine do? Wellllll lets see he FEAKING SCREAMS! AT THE SITH!!!! AND KEEPS...ON...MOVING! Did I mention that on the marines way to the main sith he takes down two siths? YEah he does!!!Then thats when the jedi uses her force blast to blast them all away. You can see the marine in the back dazed by all this then someone gives him a gun and he is right back at it! So then this awesome girl jedi with a double saber staff jumps in and takes out four or five siths in a flash and heads to the main sith. They battle it out and then the sith gains the upper hand by cutting her staff in half and sending both peices flying and he goes to stab her in the heart. And she uses the force with her hands to stop his saber. Then thats when my man comes in. The marine to tackle the sith and they lock up and the sith (much stronger) easily gains the upper hand. **Sith throws a punch marine catches it. Marine throws a punch and sith catches his wrist**but you see they are locked in hand to hands and the marine throws a punch that the sith easily catches...The marines eyes closed you see the hand that the sith is holding open! And the marine is holding a thermal detonator! He presses the button BOOM!!!! marine is dead the sith scarred but not dead. The jedi comes and uses force push to force the sith up against a big rock face about a 100 yards away or so. The sith struggles to get out and he slowly screams moving forward then the jedi uses a HUGE force blast to destroy not only th sith but art least half the rock face...The end...I love the marine he gave it all for nothing. And that makes me cry everytime...

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Updates and new stuff...isn't that the same thing?

     Ok, so I made a new friend. First off we have been friends for.....Three days? and we already have at least 1700 messages. Well this is some of the poetry I made her show me that she wrote. She doesnt really like her own stuff and says I'm way better but I say the same thing. She seemd pretty dark...I LIKE IT!!!! hahaha I'm just tired of being the only one that is dark. She also has health problems like with her knees sound familiar? hahaha And she loves adrenaline rushes and pushing her limits. Anyway her is some of her poetry but first time for updates.
     
     First off I kinda just lost someone I love. They didn't die. It's just complicated. And besides being down all the time because of that I've been practicing screamo singing. And I have gotten to use it twice in public. And both times people liked it the second time tho was better. I actually had people clap for me haha.

     I finished a new song on guitar that I named Agatha's Fine Goodbye. I play it everyday and can't get enough of it. I also learned to play "You had me at hello" by a day to remember which I love....Has anyone else besides me noticed that alot of screamo bands have some AWESOME!!!!! acoustic songs?

     Speaking of A Day To Remember...I GET TO GO SEE THEM ANNNNDDD RISE AGAINST!!!!! EEEEPPPPPPPP!!!!!! hahaha I love these bands!!!! Before I forget my friend ashton says "eep" in high pitched voice when you squeeze right above her knee. Ok well I LOOVEEE these bands and all of my friends are jealous well some are some could really care less. But HAY!!! I will get to go with my bro casey! Love that guy. And I will get to do something that I haven't done in awhile..*deep screamo voice* MOSH PITTT!!!!! After what I've went thru this past two months and someone always saying "rest!, DONT DO THAT! you'll get hurt!!" I'm going to go all out on everything....(I miss hearing those words tho : (  ) ANY WHO here is the two poems "It" and "Teen'' By: Raina Woy


It
Ever see something out of the corner or your eye

When you look it is gone

Ever feel like someone is watching but no one was ever there

Do you start hearing things

Guess what, you are stuck in fear

You can't get out IT simply won't let you

You are alone

Mania starts seeping in

You try to block it out

It won't let you

Your walls are weak an brittle

You start to stiffen

Can't breathe?

Here IT comes..

It can smell your fear

Fear calls to it

Now it has you in its grasp

Your poor attempts to gasp for air will do you no good

You give your life's last breath

IT drains you to your death

Trapped in fear..........

Teen
Are you aware

Cab you stand a stubborn teen

Who writes poems as if death is lurking your way

She doesn't like you

Are you alert

A stubborn teen may get you hurt

Many things have happened.. Have you heard

Steer clear, leave her be, she always gets away

Scary things may happen to you today

You can't escape now. You can't hide from me

Your image burns inside my memory

To relieve this agony... She manipulates you mind.

She gives you her pain and strife

Are you aware
Are you alert

This stubborn teen may get you hurt.

Monday, January 23, 2012

I need a name for this song!!!!

I've been listening to the same song for the past hour 
and it just keeps getting sweeter
every.single.time
oh
I light the candles in the wind
Writing songs in your name
I felt the silence sit, sit in my brain

You never show'd up
And thats when I Scram your name
Nothing but the wind to hear my crys
Thats when I sang

ohhh IIIII
Cant forget your name
And even tho you reject me
I step back in again
I need you now more than ever
All I hear is your voice calling my name

Its been two weeks now
I haven't talked to you once
Cause i honor your wishes

I'm over you in my dreams
I've forgotten the smiles, the laughs, and the kisses
And then i sang

ohhh IIIII
Cant forget your name
And even tho you reject me
I step back in again
I need you now more than ever
All I hear is your voice calling my name


And thats when I got your call.......................




still a work in progress

Friday, January 20, 2012

happy at last

Looking for a bloody sky
In the plains of hell

Can anyone feel the pain I feel?
And no please don't Tell!

All these scars just cut deeper
From all the evil I see in my own eyes

But when I am happy I am noy monsterous machine
I don't hear all the childrens cries
I actually see a way out
Im tired of being nothing to myself
This darkness I have come to know so well
How can I let something go when its all I know?

My saviour has gone and left me

Left me for death Sweet death
To take me in my sleep tho I hope i met it head on
like a rushing bull to the matador only to die a slow and painful death

But for now I am happy with this
Happy with my pain

seeing clearly for the first time
I realize that living

is......................

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

100!!!

                     So first of I would like to point and laugh at my dearfoxy friend devin....-points and laughs-....ok so now that that is over with, I would like to announce that I got a 100 on my literature exam for school. The topic was "How to write a paragraph with correct puncuation and format" SO HA!!! Take that all you who say my blogs are just one big mess! Tho I did misspell meets with mets..I blame that I was doing it aat 7 in the morning!
       
                    Ok well besides that I don't really have any new news except that maybe. I may be going to go see one of my favorite bands Rise Against. And I really want to go beacause it's on my bucket list.

                  

Friday, January 13, 2012

new song lyrics

     Ok so I was inspired this morning..welll not inspired but more of I heard guitar chords in my head and then i had lyrics that I was screaming...Yes these lyrics is screamyish but more of like soft bullet for my valentine or hard three days grace. And before people go on and say I wrote this for someone..I DIDNT! I never write anything for anyone.

And ALL I did
Was want to fall asleep with you
And as we lay here in bed
I can't forget All The THINGS I said
To you
Just wanna hold you in my arms
And thats when I HEARD you say
IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER ANYWAY
Today
As I held you in my arms
You pulled that trigger and blew me away
But IIII still
Love you ALL the same
Evn tho
Im TEN feet in the ground
The love my heart still pounds
And thats all I have to say
For you today

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Nothing new but argueing! :D

OK first off I've been real happy the last couple of days and today.....I still am and to start today I would like to argue : ) ....Ok so one of my sisters (not by blood) (or marriage) wrote a blog (click link) about music today not haveing any meaning and it isnt what it used to be. And the music industry. Ok so first off Lauren your too dang picky, I know you already know that but I'm just sayin. And the music industry right now is THRIVING! to be honest most of the bands you like were from an era where the music industry wasnt good 1990's - early 2000's. It hasnt been this good since the 80's. And too be honest I HATE the stupid music today  but its what the people demand apparently so thats what they give them. Plus there is bands today that make music worth listening too. NOW you may not like it cause your not openb too all music but alot of todays music has meaning for instance RISE AGAINST is an amazing screamo/heavymetal/rock band but when most people hear the first few chords they are going make one of two desicions, not listen or listen. Now this band has heavy riffs and big drumming (like most heavy metal) BUT!!! the lyrics to almost EVERY SINGLE SONG!!!! has meaning and once you actually listen to that then you'd understand. Plus music will never be exactly like it use to be cause as long as people change (which they always do, history repeates itself) then so will thge music. And besides your a musician!!! How awesome is that? VERY!!! go make your own stuff, and dont say you suck cause you dont and if you did LEARN to love your own stuff!!! No matter what II or others say screw 'em and keep on playin!

Peace, Love, Keep on Keepin on!
Tucker Wolf Moore

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Thank you

I dont have alot to say but i just want to say thank you to tghose who read my posts. I have like 3 followers but I get people from asia and europe and alaska reading it, so I thank you. Ok so, I have one update after all, and yes its disappionting. Well my pay check got cut by 50%..yeah major..So now i have to get another job and I am going to wait till the 17th of this month cauyse it makes it alot easier cause I'll be 16. And I know some may think this isnt bad at all....Weeelllll my second job will cause me to miss some meetings, and the rare times that I have gotten to spend time with my friends in frannklin will be cut down to none, I may get to like once every three months if im lucky. But im working for my grandparents this week and because im haveing to move big moldy stuff everywhere im getting paid some big bucks. so ill be able to spend alot of money in asheville with what seems like the last time with my friends next wednesday at the waltz night at the orange peel. NOW!!! I didnt want to tell anyone this because one people i usually pay for there stuff when im with them will not allow me to do that. and two will look at me different IM STTIIILLLL the same person!!!! LET ME pay for your crap or your trip!!! I save up to do this! I PLAN on buying you satuff WHY???? Cause I like to!!! Why I have to get an extra job is so I can have some food when my parents arent with me which is ALOT. and so i can pay my bills...Anywho besides that im haveing an amazing time! I want everything to go perfect on the 11th when we get to waltz night!!! I got myself a tailcoat. And i want it to be awesome cause it may be the last time for a VERY LONG time that ill get to see my friends. PEACE! LOVE! and i miss you all!!!!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Hero of war

Ok so one of my favorite bands (rise against) who sing an acoustic song named hero of war and I love it and it tells a story. He said "Son, have you seen the world?
Well, what would you say if I said that you could?
Just carry this gun and you'll even get paid."
I said "That sounds pretty good."

Black leather boots
Spit-shined so bright
They cut off my hair but it looked alright
We marched and we sang
We all became friends
As we learned how to fight

A hero of war
Yeah that's what I'll be
And when I come home
They'll be damn proud of me
I'll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it's a flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

I kicked in the door
I yelled my commands
The children, they cried
But I got my man
We took him away
A bag over his face
From his family and his friends

They took off his clothes
They pissed in his hands
I told them to stop
But then I joined in
We beat him with guns
And batons not just once
But again and again

A hero of war
Yeah that's what I'll be
And when I come home
They'll be damn proud of me
I'll carry this flag
To the grave if I must
Because it's a flag that I love
And a flag that I trust

She walked through bullets and haze
I asked her to stop
I begged her to stay
But she pressed on
So I lifted my gun
And I fired away

The shells jumped through the smoke
And into the sand
That the blood now had soaked
She collapsed with a flag in her hand
A flag white as snow

A hero of war
Is that what they see
Just medals and scars
So damn proud of me
And I brought home that flag
Now it gathers dust
But it's a flag that I love
It's the only flag I trust

He said, "Son, have you seen the world?
Well what would you say, if I said that you could?"

Ok so the title of this song you may think its pro-war bit thats the great thing. Its neither pro nor con. Do at the beginning a boy it young man os talking to his dad and his dad asks him if he wants to join to the army. Saying he will get to see the world and he will get to carry a gun AND get paid for it. Son of course says yes. And near the middle of the song he talks about how they were taught to fight and how he made a bunch of freinds. Then in the middle he says that he took a man from his own house while his children we're still there. Then they peed in his hands and took all his clothes. He yells at them to stop. But then he joins in with them and he beats this man with his gun and batons. Then at the end it gets a bit confusing.  A girl walks toward him to stop. He yells at her to stop and she doesn't understand his language most likely and keeps going so he raises his gun and fires. Then he notices that she was carrying a "flag white as snow". Then he says how now he carries that flag. And the chorus he's saying he will be a hero of war. And they will be so damn proud of him. And he will carry this flag to the grave if he must cause its the flag that he trusts.
Now do you see? What war can do to a man? First off he just wants to be a hero and everyone to be proud of him. He goes into war and tho he got his man, everyone began to beat the man and our first person doesn't like it.....then he changes and becomes evil and beats a man with family. Freinds and kids. So then there's an innocent woman with a white flag that he kills tho by accident he did it thru his stupidity and pride and evil. And then we he sees she held a white flag that changes him back and he sings the way chorus again. And this time his flag has changed from his nations to the "flag white as snow"..